I don''t feel much about such a tone.


    After all, my mother used to speak evil.


    If you don''t listen carefully, you can''t stand it. In fact, this is also the tone of concern.


    Fortunately, I grew up in such an environment. If I changed my temper, I wouldn''t be able to quarrel now.


    "Yes."


    I don''t want to talk much, and I have no superfluous emotion for such a party.


    To be honest, this kind of utilitarian banquet is more disgusting than the hypocritical flattery banquet I attended before.


    Everyone is dressed up in a high-end atmosphere. My cousins want to hang all the limited edition things on their bodies.


    There is no such feeling of expensive upper class, but a feeling of Christmas tree or human goods rack.


    Rao is that I haven''t come several times, but I''m also very impressed by such things.


    Not only that, they all have men around them with their heads raised high, as if they want to show off their men at any time.


    "Have you seen ah Xin?"


    I don''t like this kind of party. When I wanted to find a place to stay, I heard my mother say.


    The voice is very light. She is still wearing bright clothes, but this bright color makes her body more bloated. She has long been not the slim pastry of that year.


    For so many years, I don''t even know what she thinks. I''m ready to attend every such party.


    But it has become a joke in others'' mouths, but it still stubbornly guards the so-called pride and face.


    I took a complicated look at her and took back my eyes. I just, um, didn''t want to say anything else.


    Even if ah Xin and I are all flowing her blood, but for so many years, I still can''t agree with her.


    She has never been a good mother. Ah Xin has such responsibilities.


    I watched her face become painful, and then ugly. I opened my eyes full of expectation and urgency and said, "did you find him? Did you say you could get it out? Since you are so capable, should this thing be all right?"


    Her voice was low, but anxious.


    In that case, she told me many times before.


    But every time I didn''t respond positively.


    The ''he'' in her mouth is not ah Xin, but Qin Langjun.


    Up to now, she is still looking forward to secretly fishing out a person in front of such a serious and almost impersonal law.


    It''s just a dream. It''s impossible.


    "He can''t help either."


    I avoided her sight and said, without any pause or hesitation.


    If I don''t make it clear this time and don''t stop thinking about her, sooner or later she will be as confused as before and do some confused things.


    Rather than wait until that day, it''s better for me to get the vaccine in advance.


    "That''s your brother, your brother. What are you talking about?"


    Sure enough, her short smile was completely gone. There was surprise and anger in her eyes. No matter how low her voice was, some emotions leaked out.


    With a little hysteria.


    Originally, she was wearing very tight clothes. Now her mood fluctuated very much, and her clothes moved a few times. She saw that the button was about to burst.


    I subconsciously wanted to say something, but I suppressed such impulse before I spoke again.


    Why? I''ve long wanted to break off relations with such a family. Why should I work hard and thankless again and again.


    I control the voice is still insipid, so insipid that I even feel a little cold.


    "No one can help him. If you insist on helping, you may really kill him."


    I''m not alarmist.


    According to my understanding of her, sooner or later she will make some moths.


    Ah Xin is lucky now, but if there is any deviation again, no one can say when he will come out.


    "Do you think I''ll kill him?"


    I don''t know which words stimulated her. Her mood was more intense than just now. Her upper body leaned forward slightly and tightened up. She came close to me with an aggressive attitude.


    "I''m his mother. Can I kill him?"


    "What about you? I''m your mother, so you have to help me. What are you doing now? When you have a good home, you want to break off the relationship with this side and wipe out the grace of raising for so many years?"


    It''s about this again.


    Generally, when there is nothing to say or threaten, she always steps on this point and keeps pressing on "filial piety".


    I just looked at her, looked at her every move and listened to what she said. There was no anger at all. On the contrary, I felt a little sad and funny.


    The little people at the bottom have always struggled to live. All kinds of ugly faces, in the final analysis, are just for living.


    People, just to live, it''s enough to spend all their experience, it''s very difficult.


    I was a little stunned and relaxed. I was suddenly a little confused when I looked at her mouth that kept opening and closing in front of me, looked at the wrinkles on her face, and saw the deep gullies in the corners of her eyes and the white hair at the roots of her temples.


    I can''t remember whether she was young, or whether she was really as proud and glorious as she said when she was in her prime.


    But if I wait, or in the future, will I become like this?


    Hysterical like a madman, secular like the most common and vulgar woman, and even the body will get fat. All that once relied on will become sharp thorns and stab them hard.


    I suddenly dare not continue to imagine, if my proudest age is gone, what will I have left?


    All kinds of messy negative emotions flashed in my mind. None of them could actively arouse my mood. I smiled at myself and stopped thinking.


    I''ve never been a fussy character. If I fell into a puzzle just now, it would only be a moment.


    "Talking to you, what are you laughing at?"


    My mother was probably angry and said angrily, looking at me.


    As long as it involves ah Xin, her eccentricity is obvious.


    Probably not son preference, but because ah Xin is the witness of her love. Even if the man disappeared and abandoned her in the end, the world evaporated, but she was still guarding Baba.


    "I really can''t help you. If I have such great skills, why should I go this way? Do I have to follow in your footsteps?"


    I said sarcastically.


    Her life has always been something I scoff at, even the disgust I''ve always wanted to avoid since I was a child, but I didn''t expect that she was on the same road after all.