I''ll just stand here and watch.


    He didn''t notice my existence and was still busy with him.


    I knew something about his charitable deeds before and helped him, but I seldom came after breaking up.


    At the beginning, Qin Si was cruel and cold to me, and had a black hand to my good heart, but he didn''t have a penny at this time.


    He is still the man who makes people feel like a spring breeze. He is still the man who frames himself in the rules. It seems that even if he falls into the mire, he doesn''t fall much dirt.


    "Shall we go?"


    Lin Zhu didn''t rush me, but looked at me and said.


    I stopped for a moment, looked back at her and smiled, "in fact, if he doesn''t face me, it''s all like this, isn''t it?"


    There seems to be something hovering in the chest. Those things I have long recognized have now spread out from the corner.


    Even if I keep deceiving myself, I have to admit that he has always been excellent and gentle everywhere. Those dark sides and those hysterical sides have all been shown to me.


    He is the source of my nightmares, and I am not to him.


    My words are endless, almost where my emotions go, what I think and what I say.


    But I know, Lin Zhu knows what I mean.


    She hardly stopped, but sighed and said, "yes, if you don''t force him like this, maybe he will always be like this. Why do you two torture each other?"


    She told me this a long time ago, but I didn''t listen or believe it.


    I never thought I would reach this point with Qin Si, but now it''s out of control. I can''t even control it. I didn''t think about it.


    I pressed him step by step, and he was almost driven crazy on the edge of the cliff. The person who has always been gentle and has no temper and has always been gentle to anyone was driven crazy by me, and even forced him to pull me into the cliff.


    In a trance, I suddenly couldn''t remember his original appearance.


    It seems that in my impression, there is only the appearance after breaking up with Qin Si.


    I only remember the way he finally hung his head and begged me to let go. I only remember the way he stumbled and asked me frantically. He never had the warm memory of the wind again.


    He''s crazy, so am I.


    All I wanted was a little warmth, but now I put myself in a colder place until I had nothing.


    "Yes."


    I smiled and stopped looking over there.


    I''m afraid that when I see his gentle smile from my heart, I will be soft hearted. I''m afraid I''ll think of that dark history and regret it. In the final analysis, I''m still selfish.


    "But what can I do? If I watch him live better after he leaves me, I can''t do it. You know, I can''t do it."


    I looked up at Lin Zhu and wanted to laugh at myself, but the corners of my mouth couldn''t hook up.


    A sense of fatigue and powerlessness invaded, and the fingers moved a few times, and they didn''t have the strength to hang down again.


    Lin Zhu looked at me painfully, but he was still cold and said, "it''s not too late to let go. In fact, he has enough retribution. If he lets go, it''s good for you."


    I didn''t answer.


    She went on and said directly and ruthlessly, "do you think it''s worth it to take revenge on a man like a middle-school boy all your life?"


    I didn''t answer this question.


    The charity over there continues.


    The smile on Qin Si''s face was sincere and spread from the bottom of his eyes. There was a child beside him, dragging his trouser legs. He was not angry, but squatted down and said something gently to the child.


    I can''t hear what he said, but I can see his gentle movement.


    If there is no me, if there is another person, maybe he is still standing in a place of respect and admiration as before.


    This scene is particularly warm, but it also hurts my eyes.


    "Let''s go."


    I looked back, but my voice seemed to be hoarse.


    "Tang Zhi!"


    Lin Zhu didn''t move, but aggravated his tone and called me.


    She was determined this time, let me see clearly and let me express my attitude.


    But I''m in this situation. I can''t come out so easily.


    "Well, well, I didn''t do anything. They fought within the Qin family, so they let them fight by themselves. Didn''t I get involved? When Qin Si came to me, I wasn''t ready to intervene. I just looked at it and waited to see enough of the play. It''s not too late to go, isn''t it?"


    I softened my voice and smiled at her.


    It''s certain to leave, but the back road has not been paved and can''t go. What''s more, I haven''t seen the result of the internal struggle of the Qin family.


    On the one hand, it doesn''t mean I don''t want to see Qin Si punished. From the beginning of the play, I''m doomed to wait to see its end.


    Lin Zhu sighed and frowned. "Just do it. I''ll see if you can do it yourself. It''s too late to regret at that time."


    For such words, I don''t think so.


    But I have to cooperate with her and go on.


    The confusion and trance in my heart is just a moment. When I adjust, I''m ready to go.


    But happened to meet the familiar sight.


    After Qin Si calmed the child, he happened to see me. His gentle eyebrows, which had just been stretched, wrinkled in an instant, and his eyes were also habitually vigilant and heavy.


    There was only a moment of confrontation.


    I raised my chin, smiled at him and continued to walk proudly.


    No matter how his face changes, I still follow my steps and don''t look back.


    I recognized many things long ago. I just closed myself, just stubbornly followed what I wanted to do. Even if I lost control, I still drove like a madman on the edge of the cliff.


    "You, ah, will toss yourself like this by hurting the enemy a thousand and losing eight hundred. Who cares about you? You say you''re stupid or not."


    Lin Zhu said.


    "Don''t you still have you, and who said it was so miserable in the end? It''s not certain who lost and who won. Keep consuming it. Let''s go. Isn''t it shopping?"


    I pressed down the mood at the bottom of my heart and still smiled heartlessly at her.


    But I didn''t say what I wanted to say.


    Cause and effect reincarnation, retribution is bad. I can''t tell who owes more. Maybe in the end, it may end up in a bad end.


    But of course, this is the worst result. I am not a pessimist, and I will not feel so miserable.


    So these depressed words didn''t come out.