《Suddenly I Have a Husband and Children》 Chapter 1 Note: Chapter 1 is pretty long of about 60 pages so this is divided into 10 making 1 chapter is 6 pages long. Nothing is more cruel than making the world full of false hopes. Perhaps, just in case, such a mind instantly lifts a person to the top of the sky and sinks him deep into the ground. I think love is the most damaging thing among the heart diseases. If I were to pick one out of them, it would be one-sided love. ¡°Oops, oops, oops¡­!¡± ¡°Princess¡­ Please don¡¯t cry¡­ What?¡± She pulls the pillow while she¡¯s tearing it out, buries her face, and cries. She is Estella de Rieff Messian. The king¡¯s only child and the only princess in the Messianic kingdom. The princess, who had no choice but to be immature because of the king¡¯s deep affection and the love of the people, had everything she wanted, and the world had her head big. But¡­ Why is she crying so sad when she has everything? There was a good reason for Estella to make such a scene. This is because her passionate crush for five years ended today. Her crush was going to get married. At 13 years old, Izak Mondis, the successor of Mondis Duchary, whom she met for the first time at the academy banquet. He has a beautiful appearance, tall height, broad shoulders to hug, and a husky voice. Izak was everyone¡¯s ideal type. On the first day when she saw him, Estella told the maids that she felt something really fateful. ¡°The moment I saw Izak, a bolt of lightning came down in the clear sky and passed through the top of my head.¡± ¡°Hey, princess. You¡¯re too much.¡± ¡°Oh, I¡¯m telling you! I¡¯m telling you!¡± Estella¡¯s heart beat hard when her eyes met with Izak. She couldn¡¯t do anything and she felt like her heart was going to come out. It was like hearing a bell from somewhere. She was out of her mind for a while because she felt something had gone through her spine. From that day on, at the age of 13, Estella had a passionate crush on Izak. Estella¡¯s heart was sincere to dismiss it as a child¡¯s puppy love. She couldn¡¯t help it because her heart beat for him heavily. She always attends every banquet he says he is going to, takes courses she was not interested with in order to see him at the academy, writes letters, etc. She did everything she could at a shy young age. When she talked to Izak, her face turned red as if it would explode. The princess always imagined her future with him. Having kids with him, being a happy couple! And¡­ a Romantic marriage! A year after she began her unrequited love, Estella visited King Benjamin and said it was not just a New Year¡¯s greeting but a marriage permission. ¡°Father! I want to marry the heir of that man.¡± His beloved daughter says this anxiously, would he not listen to her? With such a feeling, Estella clung to her father. ¡°I¡¯m totally in love. Can you grant it?¡± ¡°¡­Estella, do you mean Izak?¡± ¡°Of course! Who else is there?¡± King Benjamin grumbled and swept his beard away. He continued, muttering, ¡°This child is like her mother.¡± ¡°My dear Estella. I¡¯m sorry, but I can¡¯t do that.¡± ¡°Why? What? Why?¡± ¡°He¡¯s already engaged to the eldest daughter of the Duke of Bertrand.¡± *Kwang! Kwang!* Estella turned her head and looked at the window, startled by the thunder. The weather was still sunny and sunny. Only then did she realize that the thunder was heard only by herself. Is this the shock of a broken heart? At the age of 15, Estella lies down with the news that her crush is her cousin¡¯s fiance. When her only daughter was sick, King Benjamin called all kinds of doctors to see and treat her, but the answer seemed to be one thing. It was a mental illness. Of all the many diseases, it¡¯s just a lovesickness. Estella became sick like a dying flower because of love. Estella was his only child, so she was very precious to King Benjamin. The only child between his beloved queen. Estella, who resembles the deceased queen,was the king¡¯s greatest weakness. In the end, the king summoned the Duke of Bertrand. Chapter 2 ¡°Grand Prince Bertrand, see you, Your Highness.¡± ¡°Ha ha, Bertrand. How have you been? Make yourself at home.¡± ¡°I¡¯m just thankful that you¡¯re here after a long time. But what brings me¡­.¡± ¡°Oh, that¡¯s it. As you know, our Estella is sick right now.¡± ¡°Yes, I heard from you. The princess has a mysterious disease, so should I look for a foreign drug?¡± The king shook his hand, saying, ¡°You don¡¯t have to do that.¡± In fact, Estella¡¯s treatment of the disease was very simple, he was just embarrassed to say it. ¡°I¡¯d like to ask you a shameful favor.¡± ¡°What is it?¡± ¡°Actually, Estella¡­ She loves this guy so much. But when she found out that he was engaged, she became lovesick.¡± ¡°Oh, my¡­¡± ¡°I won¡¯t say anything shameless about engagement. But can you postpone the wedding even for a few years? In the meantime, I¡¯ll introduce you to another man to my Estella.¡± ¡°Oh, don¡¯t worry, brother. Originally, both weddings were supposed to be held after the coming-of-age ceremony. I¡¯m more worried about her being sick than that.¡± ¡°Thanks.¡± The king asked with a sorry face. The Grand Duke of Bertrand readily accepted that he would do so, saying, ¡°Don¡¯t be sorry at all.¡± Estella, who was stuck in my room and used to live in my bed as usual. The king, who visited her, spoke in a friendly voice. ¡°Hey, it¡¯s Estella. I have good news.¡± ¡°What is it¡­¡± ¡°Izak¡¯s wedding has been postponed.¡± ¡°¡­Really? Why?¡± Estella¡¯s eyes, which had been struggling like a sick chicken, sparkled. The king continued by adding a little more lies. ¡°Well, maybe discord is the reason.¡± ¡°Well, maybe your relationship will stop at engagement?¡± ¡°I suppose so.¡± ¡°Wow!¡± At the age of 15, Estella had that hope. He was sorry that it¡¯s a vain hope, but not knowing it, she returned to her usual Estella after that day. And when she turned 16, Izak went to war. Estella doesn¡¯t know how anxious she was at that time. Estella prays to all kinds of gods every night while shaking the essence. Her fiancee, Lily Bertrand, enjoys a leisurely shopping spree. When Estella was 18 years old, Estella shed tears of relief as Izak returned from winning the battlefield as the successor of Mondis Duchary. At the banquet, she gave congratulations on his return to life, and Izak gave Estella a friendly smile, saying thank you. In fact, Lily, her fiancee, smiled and drank with other young people, and Izak looked at Lily for a moment and continued to talk to Estella again. Perhaps the rumors of discord were true. Estella¡¯s hope for the man who did not get married even after the coming-of-age ceremony burned like fire. ¡°I had so much hope, but he ended up marrying Lily! Weren¡¯t you in a bad relationship?! I can¡¯t even speak properly¡­!¡± But Izak, to his heart¡¯s content, proposed to Lily Bertrand the year he returned from the war. Lily Bertrand naturally accepted the proposal, and now tomorrow is their wedding. And in the end, tomorrow came. The place where the wedding ceremony was held was a huge castle of Mondis Duchary. Two happy-looking people hold hands and recite the couple¡¯s vows. Izak kissed Lily on the forehead with a friendly face. Estella looked blankly at the scene. She thought she would shed tears and make all kinds of indecent acts when she went to the wedding hall, but she felt unexpectedly calm. Did she cry too much and got dehydrated? Estella felt her stomach getting worse and worse. ¡®Ugh¡­ I feel like throwing up. Is it because it¡¯s an empty stomach??¡¯ As the nausea came up, Estella slipped down from her seat and left the ceremony. Estella, who was hovering around the mansion until the ceremony was over, moved to a huge pond next to the castle. Estella spent time still picking up pebbles and throwing them into the lake. Seeing that the band¡¯s performance has begun, the ceremony seemed to have come to an ending. Estella woke up after practicing smiling and sending congratulatory messages. Estella, turn back the clock! Someone called her name. Estella, surprised, looked around, but there were no people. Then, bubbles of air came up from the pond. ¡°What is it?¡± After doing it again, she heard someone splashing about whether they were inside. The curious Estella leaned unknowingly near the pond. She saw something in the water. At first glance, she thought of a human spirit. ¡°Oh, oh, oh!¡± At the same time, she lost her center of gravity and stumbled and fell inside. Splash! Estella didn¡¯t know how to swim. She never learned how to swim in the first place. Why did the guard leave the guard post at a time she was drowning? Stop floundering and save people! She screamed, but it was clear that her cries are probably obscured by the band¡¯s music. ¡°Oh, I can¡¯t believe I died at the wedding of my crush. What do you mean¡­¡¯ Do you mean dog death? Estella sank further and further under such cold water. Chapter 3 ¡°Gasp!¡± Estella opened her eyes and breathed in. She can now breathe well after her nose was being blocked. As soon as she opened her eyes, she thought, ¡°Am I alive?¡± As I jumped out of her seat, she heard the nanny¡¯s voice. ¡°Oh, my princess!¡± ¡°Nanny?¡± The nanny wasn¡¯t with me at the wedding. Did she bring her back to the palace? Who took herself out of the pond? Estella looked at the nanny with a puzzled look. The nanny held Estella¡¯s hand and burst into tears. ¡°Oh, my God, how surprised this nanny was! Oh, my God! How dare you jump into the pond!¡± ¡°What? I didn¡¯t mean to kill myself¡­Um? Nanny, look at me for a second.¡± Estella held onto the face of the nanny, who was wiping away tears. Something feels strange. ¡°Why, why?¡± ¡°Why are you so old?¡± I think you¡¯ve aged at least 10 years. The wrinkles are deeper, and the voice is more like a grandmother. The nanny flared at Estella¡¯s words. ¡°What? You¡¯re such a rotten apple!¡± Even so, does it mean that her nanny grows old in just a few days? Estella looked surprised to see the nanny whose black hair began to gray. Just out of curiosity, Estella looked around. Looking closely, this was not her room. It was not a colorful wallpaper or a canopy with lace strings, but a really monotonous room with minimal furniture left made up of dull red bean porridge colored monochrome wallpaper. ¡°Where am I? Was there a room like this in the palace?¡± ¡°What? What are you talking about? We¡¯re here.¡± As soon as the nanny was about to talk, the door opened wide and I heard footsteps. There were two small heads peeking over the mattress. Estella narrowed her eyes to see what that was. The two little children wriggled up on the bed and rushed into her arms. ¡°BUMP!¡± The two little chilfren who ran to her cried and said. ¡°Mom!¡± ¡°Mom?¡± Estella repeated the little ones¡¯ words, doubting her ears. These little children, mumbling with their tongues and small lips, rubbed her face while being within Estella¡¯s arms. ¡°Mom! You¡¯re not going to do it anymore, are you?¡± ¡°Hey, what are they talking about? Who¡¯s the mom?¡± Estella was frightened by the young people who just climbed up to her. ¡®No, why were they calling me mom? I don¡¯t remember giving birth. I¡¯m sure they¡¯re from the Countess of Dorne, who is known for being rude and playful! How dare you not even recognize the princess. I quickly took off the children and checked their faces.¡¯ ¡°¡­aren¡¯t you countess Dorne¡¯s kids? Who are you really guys?¡± ¡°Mom?¡± They aren¡¯t the kids I know of. Whose children are so pretty, cute, and handsome? Estella, who was struggling, didn¡¯t realize that she had gained weight. She quickly regained her senses and pretended to be strict with the children. ¡°I¡¯m not your mother. What do you mean? A princess who¡¯s not married has no manners! Go to your mom.¡± ¡°Woong¡­¡±?¡± Now, the children, who seemed to be about four or five years old, were surprised by Estella¡¯s loud voice and rolled their big eyes, and soon began to pout their lips and cry. ¡°Princess, what¡¯s wrong with you? What?¡± The nanny next to her says, ¡°When are you going to sit on the sidelines and why are you doing this now?¡± Estella once again looked down at the children crawling into the product out of injustice. By the way, it looks familiar. He looks strangely like himself, and strangely¡­. I think I¡¯ve seen this face somewhere..¡¯ When I thought about it, I heard a flying voice somewhere. ¡°You don¡¯t want to see my son anymore? Ruth, Lucy. Come here to Daddy.¡± The protagonist of the sarcastic voice looked at Estella with a sharp look as much as her voice. When he opened his arms and asked his father to come, the children escaped Estella¡¯s arms and hugged him. Estella looked at him with a blank face. ¡°What¡¯s wrong, mom? It¡¯s as if I saw someone I couldn¡¯t see.¡± The man who said he was the father of the children and now tells himself he¡¯s his wife, ¡°¡­Izak?¡± It was the Izak Mon DS, whom Estella had a passionate crush on, and yet married Lily Bertrand. Estella quickly rolled her head to understand the current situation. The old nanny, the place I¡¯ve never seen before, the two little boys who call me Mamang, the father, my child, his wife, and Izak who say things that I don¡¯t know. What is this situation? ¡°Why are you here, no, where the hell are we?.¡± Looking at Estella, who was confused, I frowned whether Izak was strange. His eyes look like she¡¯s crazy, what¡¯s wrong with her? It was that kind of look. ¡°Where are we?! Why, why are you calling me a wife, no. What about Lily?¡± Chapter 4 She didn¡¯t know what to ask first, so Estella stuttered. I definitely had my eyes on Lily when he married her. Then why do you call me your wife? What are these kids? Why are they calling you dad? Estella looked at Izak with a confused look. But Izak looked coldly at Estella with his old sweet eyes nowhere, and soon turned his head and told the nanny. ¡°Get the doctor back. My wife¡¯s condition is very strange. I think she hit her head when she fell into the pond.¡± Estella recalled the last memory of falling into the pond and floundering. Estella said, pointing her finger at Izak in an urgent situation. ¡°Yes, that pond! That pond! I fell after your wedding. ¡­wait a minute. Is this a bad joke? Where is Lily? Are you¡­ perhaps kidding me?¡± Considering Lily Bertrand, who used to be playful, it was a good enough possibility. Lily likes to fool the little Estella and even now that they are grown ups. ¡°Is this a joke? It¡¯s not fun.¡± As Estella said, Izak, who was still looking at her, continued again. ¡°¡­nanny, go get the doctor.¡± ¡°Yes, yes!¡± The nanny also left the room quickly because her face turned blue. The children in Izak¡¯s arms asked their father with an innocent look. ¡°Papa, did Mama hit her head??¡± ¡°Yes, I guess so.¡± Estella looked at Izak, who was holding two children, as she was about to argue but she was dumbfounded by their conversation. Oh, my God. I am totally knocked out. The two children¡¯s hair was the same as Estella¡¯s shining platinum hair. The girl, who looked at Estella with her thumb sucking, looked like Estella, and even had a dot similar to her cat-like eyes. On the other hand, the boy was similar to Izak with tearful eyes with thick features, he is like a miniature version of Izak. ¡®It¡¯s obvious that these two children are Izak¡¯s children.¡¯ Estella blankly looked at the three and thought. However, no matter how much she thinks about it, she doesn¡¯t remember spending a hot, boisterous night with Izak. After a long period of blank contemplation, Estella suddenly lifted up the mirror next to the table. ¡°Oh, my God.¡± 19-year-old Estella is nowhere to be found, and only a very mature woman is in front of her. She stood in front of the mirror every night and thought that this would be what she would look like in her 20s. Estella, who opened her eyes round as if her eyes would pop out right away, began to touch her face and hair as well as her whole body. Izak¡¯s expression, while witnessing this sight, became strange. Estella slowly turned her head and asked Izak. ¡°What year is it now?¡± ¡°¡­it¡¯s 650 years of climbing.¡± ¡°Oh, my God, my God. Oh, my God. Oh, my God! That¡¯s ridiculous!¡± Estella¡¯s mouth opened wide at Izak¡¯s words. All kinds of denial of reality came out of her mouth. The last memory of Estella was the wedding of Izak and Lily on May 17, 643. She remembered the date clearly. She cried so much in bed the night before that date, and he¡¯s now a married man. Was this a fantasy of her, imagining to be his bride? Seven years. I arrived in the future in seven years. Chapter 5 As Estella repeated ¡°Oh my God¡± without saying anything else, the wrinkles on Izak¡¯s forehead became more and more thick. Fortunately, soon after, the nanny returned with a doctor. The doctor asked Estella this and that. Then he raised his thick glasses and said his opinion. ¡°It¡¯s a loss of memory. You remember things before the age of 19, but you don¡¯t remember anything after that, it¡¯s a partial amnesia.¡± The nanny¡¯s mouth opened wide, Estella¡¯s eyes widened, and Izak sighed and shook his head as if he had expected. ¡°I think you were traumatized when you fell into a pond. There seems to be no other trauma, just think that they are memories that often disappeared with headaches. First of all, I¡¯ll give you a tranquilizer because you¡¯re confused right now.¡± The doctor said it was nothing, but it was not nothing to Estella. Memory loss, what a ridiculous situation. How can seven years of memories disappear like this? Estella looked at Izak with a shocked face. Izak looked down at Estella, looked away and asked the doctor. ¡°What happens if her memory never comes back?¡± ¡°If it doesn¡¯t come back¡­ I guess she may not remember this forever. It¡¯s not life-threatening, and it usually takes years to get them back, so don¡¯t worry too much, Izak. Don¡¯t let her try too hard to remember, but make herself comfortable.¡± The doctor said so and left the room with the nanny. There were only Estella, Izak, and two children in his arms in the room. Estella alternately asked Izak and the children with a complicated look. ¡°So, those are the kids between you and me?¡± ¡°That¡¯s right.¡± ¡°¡­Twins?¡± ¡°Yes.¡± ¡°Then here¡­¡± ¡°My last name.¡± ¡°We have the same last name? ¡­So we¡¯re married.¡± ¡°¡­You¡¯re stating the facts.¡± ¡°Wow.¡± Estella gave a very short, low exclamation. No, I mean. I¡¯m married to Izak, and I gave birth to twins, right? Seven years from now, I¡¯m awesome! When Estella thought so, her face began to blush subtly. After seven years, Izak became more handsome, has a bigger physique, has more muscles, and matured than Izak seven years ago, flowing to decadent beauty. What a perfect ideal type of husband Izak, who looks both precarious and reliable! I couldn¡¯t hide my smile. What a gracious situation this is. It was more surprising and amazing that he had married Izak, whom he loved so much, than that his seven-year memory had disappeared. ¡°Wow?¡± Izak looked at Estella, raising her eyebrows sharply as if she was expressing such admiration in this situation. ¡°No, it¡¯s something I never expected. Oh, my God. I can¡¯t believe I¡¯m married to Izak. I got it wrong. Oh, no. Hooray.¡± Estella smiled awkwardly. Inside, I called for good luck again and again. Married to Izak! Married to Izak! We even have twins! Estella, who wanted to dance joy on the bed right away, stopped laughing without realizing it. Izak was looking at her with a scary face. ¡°Did you really lose your memory?¡± ¡°What?¡± ¡°Did you really lose your memory?¡± Izak¡¯s low voice made the twin children squirm. Izak dropped the children off and bit them with his small hands clenched tightly. ¡°You¡¯re not doing a play on purpose? You¡¯re trying to make fun of me.¡± ¡°What do you mean?¡± Estella was embarrassed. It¡¯s strange. Isn¡¯t Izak, who she knows, not raising his voice, but speaking softly and affectionately, no matter what? However, Izak, who is now, is very cold from the way he looks at himself. Estella felt something was wrong and asked again. What¡¯s that look of resentment? His eyes look as if he is dealing with his enemy. Chapter 6 **** Then Izak twisted the corners of his mouth up. It was a cynical smile. A sarcastic smile. ¡°You¡¯re good at playing with people like this. The one who was cold until yesterday, can¡¯t remember anything? You¡¯re married to me, aren¡¯t you?¡± He laughed as if he were dumbfounded. Estella somehow lost her memories making him lose his wits. For 19-year-old Estella, Izak was so unfamiliar today. Was this a kind of situation that makes someone angry? ¡°¡­That¡¯s what the doctor said. Why do you think I¡¯m playing with you? I think you are mad at me, but it¡¯s a fight between a couple, pointing knife in each other¡¯s throats is normal. Also, what do you mean, I¡¯m cold? My heart pounded every time I see Izak.¡± Estella said with a sneaky smile. At 19-years-old, was when the love for Izak peaked. Even though the other person has already married another woman, her heart was still burning up making her fall harder to him. First love. A love where she does not think rationally. Ever since she opened her eyes on the opposite sex, Estella had only seen him. A man like that is her husband now, making any woman in the world happy. But¡­ Izak sighed at Estella and said, ¡°We¡¯re in the middle of divorce.¡± ¡°We are what¡­?¡± A strange sound came out from Estella¡¯s mouth. Her head was a mess trying to organize his words straight. The twins, who noticed that the atmosphere between their mother and father was strange, grabbed Izak¡¯s pants and began to cry. Izak picked up the children again and said, ¡°Take a break for now. I don¡¯t know what caused you to fall into the pond. When the divorce period is over, I¡¯ll take my kids out of your sight, so don¡¯t be too angry.¡± ¡°¡­uh, uh¡­.¡± When she was embarrassed and speechless, Izak left the door and said a decisive sentence. ¡°Oh, by the way, do you know what? The depth of the pond is just between the thigh.¡± Even under the pond, there is only fine sand. His face, laughing as much as he could, sounded something cracking in Estella¡¯s ear. Estella, who was stiff like a stone, only looked at the place where he left for a while. Estella gave a laugh at every situation that had just been stormy. Unrequited love and a marriage going through a period of divorce. What a ridiculous situation! ¡°What the¡­ what the¡­ what the hell¡­!¡± No matter how passionate she is in love with Izak, Estella is not a saint to overlook his rude behavior without explanation. What a rude remark and behavior to present in front of the princess of the country right now! She have to weigh everything. ¡°¡­It¡¯s the first time I¡¯ve been left dumbfounded.¡± She still can¡¯t get out of the shock. Estella shook her head quickly and slapped her both cheeks. It was meant to stay alert. Estella began to organize the situation. For some reason, she has lost his memory, and she has forgotten everything after she became 19. Married Izak for seven years, spent the night with him and had twins. But for some reason, the friendly Izak disappeared and treated her as if she were his enemy, now they are even filing for divorce, which is still under consideration. ¡°Oh, my God. I don¡¯t remember anything.¡± No matter how hard she tried to remember it, she have no memory since the suppose wedding of the 19-year-old Izak and Lily Bertrand. On the other hand, the before memories of that time are still very vivid. It was too vivid to that she could say that this time was still seven years ago. The conversations she had with her father the day before, the consolation from the Grand Duke of Bertrand, the English food that the maids introduced, and the princes of other countries. Memories of the past were so vivid that it was more plausible to say that the 19-year-old Estella skipped through time than memory loss. ¡°Wait, so what happened to your marriage to Lily?¡± She wanted to call Izak right away to ask him how they got married and why they are filling for divorce. ¡®I couldn¡¯t possibly ask him for that. He¡¯s looking at me with a look of resentmention..¡¯ To the point where she couldn¡¯t keep up, Izak was very cold to her. ¡°Ha, what¡¯s going on here?¡± Already on the way to divorce before she could even enjoy the marriage. Isn¡¯t this so unfair? She can¡¯t even remember how the twins were born! Estella called her nanny. The nanny was not very happy because she had already heard how Izak and Estella¡¯s ended conversation outside the door. Estella asked the nanny, who had been looking at her since she opened the door. ¡°First of all, how did I faint?¡± ¡°Your Highness jumped into the pond. The servant who saw you ran and pulled you out, but after that you passed out¡­.¡± Estella tilted her head. Obviously, it was the last memory of falling into the water at Izak¡¯s wedding, but the details were completely different. The loud noise of the wedding band, and the sorrow of her blocked breath¡­ Then, a voice that suddenly came to her mind. Estella, turned her sight to the clock! Estella jumped out of her seat. ¡°Princess? You¡¯ll get hurt if you¡¯re moving!¡± ¡°Maybe I should go to the pond.¡± Wearing pajamas, she went to the garden where the pond was, and the servants who were passing by were surprised and quickly bowed their heads. But Estella didn¡¯t have time to care about what she was wearing. Behind the scene, the nanny chased her to wear a shawl, but Estella¡¯s legs arrived at the pond faster. Estella looked into the pond without looking back. ¡°Oh, my princess! What¡¯s wrong with you? Come on out!¡± ¡°¡­Izak was right. It doesn¡¯t even reach my thigh.¡± Unless she filled the pond while she fainted, it was ridiculous for Estella to fall here and lost memories. As soon as she left the pond, the nanny quickly put on a shawl for Estella. ¡°What are you checking out all of a sudden, huh?¡± ¡°I don¡¯t know what I¡¯m trying to check.¡± No one¡¯s gonna believe anything I will say with my mouth either way. Estella went straight to Izak. She couldn¡¯t tell where it was in this large mansion, so she had to ask a servant to guide her. ¡°You¡¯ll be with the young lady and the young lord by now?¡± ¡°So where are they?¡± ¡°Yes¡­?¡± Chapter 7 The servant¡¯s expression shook slightly as if she was asking something strange. Then the nanny behind Estella quickly stepped in and said. ¡°I¡¯m sure Lord Izak is in the greenhouse, right? Princess.¡± ¡°Greenhouse? Then let¡¯s go to the greenhouse, nanny!¡± Estella said solemnly, lifting her index finger as if to lead the nanny. On her way to the greenhouse, Estella asked the nanny a secret question. ¡°Hey, nanny. As you¡¯ve heard, I¡¯ve lost all my memories since I was 19, haven¡¯t you?¡± ¡°Yes¡­ yes, that¡¯s right. Don¡¯t worry too much. It¡¯ll come back!¡± ¡°No, I think I didn¡¯t lose them and I¡¯m in trouble, and there¡¯s something else that matters.¡± ¡°What? What is it?¡± ¡°Nanny, did I really give birth to those twins? Am I really married to Izak?¡± ¡°Oh, well¡­ yes, of course!¡± ¡°But what¡¯s with the divorce, huh?¡± The nanny smiled awkwardly at the awkward question. ¡°Princess, this nanny has no right to interfere between a couple. If you¡¯re curious, why don¡¯t you ask Izak yourself?¡± ¡°Ask for myself¡­ nanny¡­ Didn¡¯t you see the eyes he was looking at me earlier?¡± He was about to eat her up. Of course, the expression of his towards a prey was not meant to be for something vulgar, but rather it was to kill. At Estella¡¯s words, the nanny quickly turned away from Estella¡¯s gaze. ¡®Pretending she didn¡¯t know! Princess Estella seems to be amazing!¡¯ She let out a sigh. ¡°I also know my limits¡­ How can you ask me again with those eyes¡­ Sigh¡­.¡± Despite her persuation, Estella could not get any information from the nanny. Whenever she asked questions related between them as a couple, the nanny remained clueless. There¡¯s no way she didn¡¯t know! There¡¯s no way that the nanny that raised Estella, since she was a toddler and now she¡¯s even taking care of her children after marriage, wouldn¡¯t know. However, the nanny never opened her mouth and remained silent. ¡°Princess, it¡¯s a problem that you need to solve by asking Sir Izak directly.¡± ¡°Can¡¯t you just help me?¡± ¡°No.¡± Meanwhile, Estella arrived at the greenhouse. The nanny knocked on the greenhouse door carefully. ¡°Sir Izak, the princess has something to ask.¡± ¡°Tell her to come in.¡± Estella went inside at Izak¡¯s words. ¡°Please have a peaceful conversation, Princess.¡± The nanny said, closing the door. ¡°¡­is it possible, that?¡± The nanny clenched her fists with both hands and lifted them up. Estella clenched her fist along with a shaky expression. Further into the greenhouse full of recordings, ahe found Izak playing with the twins in a mat. Izak, who pretended to enjoy the food handed by the children playing house, said with a cold face as soon as he saw Estella. ¡°You must be confused, but why don¡¯t you rest more.¡± The words sounded like, ¡°Why aren¡¯t you going to lay down?¡± ¡°I am so confused that I can¡¯t rest any more.¡± Estella answered with a voice full of frustration. ¡°If you¡¯re uneasy, your memory won¡¯t come back immediately.¡± ¡°I still need to know the memory that disappeared even if they didn¡¯t come back immediately.¡± Izak looked at Estella with strange eyes. They were sad and disappointed. ¡°You went to the pond a little while ago and fell. It was definitely shallow. Has it been that deep before? I mean¡­ maybe¡­10 years ago?¡± ¡°Yes, sir.¡± ¡°You¡¯re saying it has never been filled? Let me ask you one more question. Izak, weren¡¯t you originally married to my cousin, Lily Bertrand? The last memory was that you were married to Lily¡­¡± ¡°¡­that¡¯s your last memory?¡± ¡°Yes.¡± ¡°Ha.¡± ¡°¡­ha?¡± Why was he making such a small sigh? Estella also didn¡¯t know what landmine she stepped on, so she only looked at his face. But Izak¡¯s current expression was getting really bad. Estella quickly added because she seemed to have stepped on a big landmine. ¡°I don¡¯t think you¡¯ll believe it, Izak, but I¡¯ll tell you. First of all, you¡¯re my husband, and you¡¯re the closest to me. We need to clear up the misunderstanding.¡± ¡°¡­what do you mean.¡± ¡°Don¡¯t be surprised and listen.¡± Estella said, weighing heavily. ¡°¡­I think I¡¯ve skipped my time into the future.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°So, I¡¯ve gone from the past to the future.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± Izak¡¯s expression was as if he were looking at a crazy person. As expected. ¡°I know, I know it¡¯s crazy, but no matter how hard I think about it, it¡¯s not an amnesia. I fell down in a pond without a rock? Let¡¯s say it¡¯s possible because I¡¯ve done it for 100 times. But would you believe me if I fell into a pond at your wedding? I was asked to go into that pond. Someone was calling my name!¡± Estella said, waving her hand. Estella continued to narrate all the things that happened. When she spat out the last word, she was now out of breath. Still breathing heavily, Estella expected Izak¡¯s response. ¡®He can¡¯t possibly believe what I¡¯m telling you this seriously.¡¯ Estella was hoping earnestly that if he had even a little bit of trust, he would certainly believe it. ¡°¡­I think this is simply too much. Who¡¯s out there? Go get the princess.¡± ¡°Oh, come on! Why can¡¯t you believe it? Why can¡¯t you trust me?! If we¡¯re married, you should believe in me!¡± Estella ended up screaming and making a scene. ¡°I¡¯m telling you the truth! I¡¯m telling you the truth!¡± She repeatedly said that. Then she looked down at a weak pull on the hem of the dress. ¡®When did the little girl came in?¡¯ The little girl handed Estella a glass of dirt. (Pretend that the dirt is tea to play with the little girl.) Chapter 8 ¡°Mommy, Mommy! Drink this.¡± The little girl pretended to lift the teacup gracefully with her short pinky. Estella unexpectedly accepted a glass of dirt. ¡°Is this for me?¡± ¡°Drink it!¡± ¡°This?¡± ¡°Drink! It¡¯s Lucy¡¯s idea to let Monmy drink tea.¡± Estella pretended to drink the dirt gracefully following the child¡¯s behavior. Then she put down the teacup and smiled slightly awkwardly. Then, the child pushes the tea cup to Estella¡¯s mouth as signaling her to drink it again. At this rate, Estella quickly distracted the little girl because she thought she would really eat dirt tea. ¡°We¡¯re gonna need more sugar. Go get some more sugar.¡± ¡°Sugar! Sugar for the tea!¡± The child goes back to the back of the greenhouse. The young boy was also excited to make a make a tea with her sister so he followed her. When the children disappeared, Estella and Izak were thrown in an awkward atmosphere. ¡°¡­uh, I mean. What we were talking about?¡± Estella mumbled, twisting her hair for no reason. Her emotions which had been anger beyond frustration until earlier were scattered into the air due to the little girl intrusion. That seemed to happen the same to Izak. He said earlier that he didn¡¯t believe her at all and didn¡¯t seem to want to hear anything out of her mouth. ¡°Let¡¯s sit down and talk for now.¡± ¡°Where is the seat?¡± At Estella¡¯s words, Izak tapped the floor next to him. ¡°Sit on the ground?¡± ¡°There¡¯s also a mat on top of the ground.¡± ¡°I¡¯ve never sat on the floor in the palace.¡± At Estella¡¯s words, Izak laughed as if she were absurd. Then he took off his coat and laid it on the mat. ¡°Can¡¯t you do this?¡± ¡°¡­no.¡± Estella quickly sat on it. There was an awkward silence again. Estella secretly looked at Izak, wondering why couple would be so awkward. ¡®How did I marry Izak in the future? What about the wedding with Lily? No, was they married because they loved each other in the first place?¡¯ In fact, Estella was still thinking this was a dream. She had a crush on him for 5 years. She was a princess who got bored quickly. Everything she wanted in the world was given to her, and there was nothing Estella could not have. Other young Princes have been begging every day to be in Estella¡¯s eyes, but no one has let Estella fall as much as with Izak, no matter how handsome the foreign Princes came in front of her. One true love. Estella wanted the love of the whole world to be focused on her, while she would only love one. But, she have never imagined she¡¯d get this much of a lovesick. However, she realized that loving someone while loving Izak was as long as making your love one happy. Of course, when he married Lily Bertrand, she cried and embarrassed everyone in the palace as well as her father, but she prayed for Izak¡¯s happiness with her swollen eyes and broken heart. Wishing For someone¡¯s happiness! It was impossible for a princess who was immature. But now that it has happened, Izak became an unforgettable person for Estella. ¡®I married Izak. I¡¯ve got two kids with him¡­ Now a divorce? No, don¡¯t I need to know what¡¯s going on First?¡¯ Izak broke the awkwardness between them first while she was still deciding what to ask. ¡°So, you¡¯ve gone from the past to the future.¡± ¡°What? Oh, right!¡± ¡°Then you are not the 26 years old you, but you are the 19 years old one?¡± ¡°Right.¡± ¡°You didn¡¯t lose your memory?¡± ¡°Yes, that¡¯s right! Someone called me from the pond the day you married Lily. He told me to look back at the clock. It felt strange, so I looked around and suddenly got dizzy and fell into the water and went down very deep. But when I opened my eyes, my God! Seven years later? That¡¯s what happened.¡± Izak looked at Estella with an unknown look. ¡°Why are you looking at me like that? Why? I¡¯m not trying to say something crazy again.¡± ¡°¡­No, come to think of it, your behavior and tone are definitely very different from before. She¡¯s like Estella, nineteen years old. Either you¡¯re very good at acting, or something ridiculous has happened.¡± ¡°It¡¯s not acting. You¡¯re right. You can¡¯t trust people like this?¡± ¡°I can trust others but thanks to someone, I couldn¡¯t now.¡± As if hit her with a sword coming from his mouth, Estella even wanted to shake Izak by the collar, saying that she would blow everyone that betrayed him right away. However, she couldn¡¯t ask anything more as the two little children, who were carrying a lot of stuff, arrived. Estella had a lot of time, so she comforted herself and looked at what the children had brought. ¡°Mom, this! Eat this! Dad, eat this too!¡± ¡°Is this something delicious? Oh! This is a macaron!¡± Then she gave Estella a bowl of water with the soil and kneaded it with attached two green leaves to it. Estella, who used to enjoy macaroons, gave Izak a helping look at the absurd gifts. The children keep giving it to her to try it quickly. Estella turns her head to the side and pretends to eat with her mouth open because she feels like she will burst into tears if she doesn¡¯t eat. ¡°Delicious. It¡¯s delicious, so go make a few more.¡± Estella said, handing the cut-off earth macaron. ¡°Is it good? Was it really good?¡± ¡°Yes, it¡¯s delicious.¡± With a grin, the two little children hold each other¡¯s hands and head back to the corner of the greenhouse. They could make many of this ¡®macarons¡¯ by spreading a lot of soil and applying water. Put muddy water in a small bowl and a glass of tea to give a look like coffee, or even plate it, and carefully put herbs around the bowl on top of the dough. They look so excited among themselves. ¡°They¡¯re very bright. Is it because they look like me¡­.¡± ¡°They must be more excited with your here today.¡± ¡°What?¡± ¡°Because you didn¡¯t usually come.¡± ¡°¡­me?¡± ¡°Yes.¡± Izak looked at Estella for a moment with a short answer. Sad eyes. She wanted to ask why she didn¡¯t usually come, but her mouth couldn¡¯t blurt out the right words. She didn¡¯t know what it is, but she feel like she have done something wrong. For no reason, she flicked her nails quietly to avoid his eyes. Perhaps without the children, they would have had an awkward time if they hadn¡¯t intervened in making food again. Izak smiled as if he were familiar with the children¡¯s cooking, sipping a muddy tea and pretending to eat dirt macarons and bread. The children stamped their feet in excitement and giggled, then immediately rushed into Izak¡¯s arms and hugged him. Two small children hung on Izak for a long time, after that the boy reached out to Estella. ¡°Mommy! You came here!¡± Chapter 9 Then the girl stretched her hands out to her as if she wanted to also hug Estella. Estella looked at them with uncomfortable eyes. ¡°¡­uh¡­.¡± She opened her hands awkwardly and hugged the two children. ¡®I¡¯m sure they are my kids.¡¯ Perhaps they noticed Estella¡¯s awkward actions faster than anyone else, but the children still came to of Estella¡¯s arms again. ¡°Ruth, Lucy. You¡¯re not going to make it hard for her, are you?¡± Izak said, hugging the childre with an expression of ¡°I knew it.¡± ¡°Uhm¡­¡± Seeing the children hesitating, hade her feel guilty for no reason. ¡°¡­well, I don¡¯t remember anything¡­ I can¡¯t help but feel like I¡¯m an outsider¡± Yeah, she feel like she is an outsider among them. The two children in Izak¡¯s arms suddenly looked at Estella as if they were unfamiliar with her actions. Izak also looked at Estella with an expression difficult to know what he was thinking. An outsider. Estella quickly approached the children and asked them. ¡°This is Ruth, and this is Lucy, right? Ruth Mondis. Lucy Mondis?¡± Her eyes are like Ruth, the boy. While the little girl, Lucy, eyes went up like a cat. This was Estella¡¯s way to avoid the awkwardness between them. Izak said in a low voice. ¡°Rustel de Messian, Lucia de Messian.¡± ¡°Oh, they followed my last name.¡± Estella said with delight. ¡°It would have been a good if they inherited the Mondis Surname.¡± Izak didn¡¯t respond at her words. Estella quickly changed her words because she thought she made a mistake. Every word she says felt like she was barely avoiding a trap hidden. Estella sweat from her forehead. ¡°Hey, who named them?¡± ¡°I did.¡± ¡°Good job.¡± Estella smiled and stroked the children¡¯s cheeks. At their age, their cheeks were plump and soft, zhe unknowingly squeezed the dough. She got excited and hug them with excitement The children turned to Izak¡¯s arms, wondering if they were hated by Estella. ¡°Oh, you¡¯re so cute that I don¡¯t know what to do.¡± In disappointment for no reason, Estella smiled awkwardly and removed her hands. ¡°Hey, Izak. I¡¯m not lying, I really think so. It¡¯s not memory loss, I leapt from the past to the future.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°Maybe the behavior I¡¯ve shown me so far, and the kids being unfamiliar with me and welcoming me too much, means I¡¯ve done something wrong in the future, right?¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°I think I came to the future from the past to correct my previous self¡¯s mistakes.¡± ¡°Estella¡­¡± ¡°Why, because I¡¯m nineteen years old, this was the time I love Izak so much!¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°So, can¡¯t we just say there¡¯s no divorce? Haha.¡± Izek¡¯s expression became mixed up with Estella¡¯s words. What¡¯s wrong with her? Estella waited nervously and anxiously until he opened his mouth. ¡°Estella, the divorce¡­ I¡¯m asking you to do it.¡± ¡°¡­yeah?¡± ¡°You filed for divorce first.¡± There was a silence. Who, uh, wanted a divorce? Estella felt like she was hit hard in the back of the head. ¡°Me? I asked you to get a divorce?¡± asked Estella. ¡°Why, why?¡± ¡°There¡¯s no way I¡¯ll know that. Given that you tried to hand over all the custody rights to me, you might be thinking that having a family was a burden.¡± Izak put the children down, held their hands, and tried to get out of the greenhouse. ¡°You came to the future to correct your mistakes. Actually, I don¡¯t think so. If you love me in the past, the future you will still leave me anyway.¡± And he went out the door and continued. ¡°And it¡¯s not like the scars I¡¯ve been getting are gone. To be honest, I¡¯m tired, too.¡± The greenhouse door was closed. Left inside the greenhouse, Estella repeated Izak¡¯s last words for a long time. ¡®It¡¯s not like the scars I¡¯ve been getting are gone. To be honest, I¡¯m tired, too.¡¯ Izak¡¯s eyes, who said so, seemed to have no intention of building a future with Estella. ¡°What the hell have I been doing?¡± Estella murmured helplessly. She haveencounter this situation before. In the past, when she was about 16, a maid brought a romance novel that was popular outside. It was a novel in which a cold husband realized how he felt and regrets towards his wife, but the maid back then said something. The male protagonist who regretted, the so-called regretful male character. Estella, look like she was at the same shoes of that man. ¡°Papa?¡± ¡°Papa, are you crying?¡± The little children looked up at Izak and said. Izak hurried his steps without saying anything. Walking down the hall quickly with his long legs, the children with short legs began to whine that he was going too fast. In the end, Ruth, who fell, burst into tears. Izak quickly lifted Ruth up, hugged him, and shook his body to soothe him. ¡°Sorry, Dad, walked too fast, didn¡¯t I? Let¡¯s see. There¡¯s no blood.¡± Below, Lucy asked, pulling on Izak¡¯s pants. ¡°Papa, are you crying? Huh? Why are you crying?¡± Chapter 10 This song is perfect for Izak. ~~~ ¡°Lucy, Daddy¡¯s not crying. Why did you think so?¡± ¡°Yeah, because¨C because¨C Dad¨C here, like this! Like this! Your face is crumpled.¡± Lucy said so, while pointing at his forehead with her two fingers. Izak smiled and messed up with Lucy¡¯s hair. ¡°Daddy had that scary look on his face?¡± ¡°Yes!¡± ¡°Sorry, I won¡¯t do it anymore.¡± Izak stood there for a while, stroking Lucy¡¯s head. He was looking down at the floor for a long time, as if he were lost in thoughts for something. Estella. She was the person that treated him very different from a human being. They got married somehow and had children, but their relationship were worse than other, they were just a show off couple. His relationship with Estella was so cold that he thought he might have been taken her as a prisoner. Estella¡¯s silver eyes, were colder than ice and pointed at him like ice spears. Her eyes were the same as the eyes of their children. Even though she was interested in them for a short while, she was still busy doing her job. In the end, the children were always been taken care by the nanny or himself. Was it his own illusion that if they had children, their relationship would improve? The mother that gave birth to Lucy and Ruth felt awkwardness, but the children were still overjoyed by a simple interest their mother had shown to them. Izak tried to fill in for the gap of a mother¡¯s love, but was it also lacking? ¡®Estella¡¯s always been busy, so I understand. But¨C¡® Aside from being busy, she was not interested in their family in the first place. There were many problems between the two, other than that. It has been a long time since the couple did attend a banquet due to the enormous discord between them. Estella was the first to give up on their relationship beyond fixing. It was even a week ago that the divorce papers were submitted. What did Estella say then? ¡®Izak, I don¡¯t think I can live with you anymore. I¡¯m immigrating abroad. Remain with the children. I will give you enough money. I¡¯ve already looked for houses abroad, and I¡¯ve already prepared all the servants.¡¯ ¡®What do you mean?¡¯ ¡®¡­I¡¯m saying we should divorce.¡¯ Estella prepared everything and only informed Izak. ¡®Another man¡­ Was there another man?¡¯ At his words, Estella sighed silently. She looked as if she didn¡¯t felt remorse or guilt. She was always like that. In the past or in the future, she was always like that. Now, she don¡¯t remember anything. She thought she leapt from the past to the future. She feel like she was here to make up for her mistake. She still love him. He wasn¡¯t happy to hear that from her now. If he was still the same before¡­ He might have forgiven her immediately but now it¡¯s different¡­ They can¡¯t be happy anymore. Izak has also given up his marriage with Estella. She was planning to go abroad immediately after the divorce either way, so this is good for them. Right now, he just finished organizing all his emotions, but¡­ it¡¯s just felt ridiculous hearing all her words about time leap and fixing her mistakes. ¡®She wanted to make up for her mistakes? Then she shouldn¡¯t have given him love. No¡­ I think meeting me in the first place was her biggest mistake.¡¯ He shouldn¡¯t have expected anything. How many years have he spent with this faint expectation? How many times have he been repeatedly hurt by her because he still couldn¡¯t let go his past feelings for Estella? When Estella proposed to him at the age of nineteen was no longer here. It just vaporized in to nothing. ¡®Izak, can you trust me and wait for me at any moment? You have to do that. Because I love Izak very much.¡¯ It¡¯s the first time he had ever been proposed to by a woman, so Izak nodded. Estella smiled shyly and put the ring on him. Both of his parents died unjustly due to treason charges, and his younger sister went abroad. He thought Estella was the only one who would be good to him in the whole Kingdom of Messian, but that illusion shattered. They were happy for a year after getting married. It was very peaceful. Soon he heard about Estella¡¯s pregnancy. Izak thought they were at the peak of their happiness, found out the secret that his wife had been hiding. The secret was a betrayal to him. Estella closed the investigation even though she knew Izak¡¯s parents were unfairly charged. It was Estella who sent his sister abroad. His lovely wife who proposed to him sweetly. ¡°Papa? Papa!¡± Ruth slapped Izak in the face and brought him back to reality from his thoughts. Izak quickly came to his senses and withdrew himself from fiddling with the wedding ring. ¡°¡­You¡¯re bad, Ruth. Why hit your dad in the face like that? Huh? You will going to get in trouble.¡± Izak said and bit Ruth¡¯s nose without hurting him. Only then did Ruth started laughing to see as if his usual father returned. Izak also hugged Lucy, who was whining for a hug, and headed to the children¡¯s room. He laid the children on a big bed. It was time for them to take a nap. Izak even took off the children¡¯s shoes and covered them with a blanket. Gave a little kiss on the forehead and Ruth said. ¡°Papa, I want to play more.¡± ¡°Let¡¯s take a nap first and play after. The sleep fairy wants to come and see you now.¡± ¡°Oh¡­ I had a good time playing today.¡± ¡°Did you enjoy hanging out with your mom?¡± Ruth held onto the blanket, crying as if he was disappointed. Then Lucy cut in loudly. ¡°Yes! Mom loves macarons! Ruth, do you want us to make another one?¡± ¡°Okay!¡± ¡°Okay, let¡¯s make it after you wake up. Mom will be glad too.¡± ¡°Oh, yeah!¡± ¡°Then you can make me some medicine to digest!¡± The excitedly speaking children soon yawned and fell asleep when Izak tapped their stomach a few times. Izak smiled faintly as he looked down at his children who fell asleep at the same time as twins. Izak left the room while lowering the sound of his steps. When he heard the door closing, he thought they might wake up but he checked that they didn¡¯t, he fully closed the door and turn around. Estella was standing right behind him. Chapter 11 ¡°We can¡¯t divorce! We won¡¯t! How can we¡­.¡± Estella¡¯s mouth was blocked by the big hand of Izak. Estella struggled to get his hands off, which blocked her nose because she was suffocating. ¡°What if they wake up?¡± Izak frowned and said. Estella slapped his hands as if indicating that she was suffocating, Izak quickly withdrew. ¡°I didn¡¯t know they were sleeping. Anyway, we can¡¯t divorce.¡± ¡°What?¡± ¡°If I did something wrong, I can fix it, right?¡± ¡°Huh.¡± Izak¡¯s small laugh sounded empty. Estella was so determined to fix everything she did as if there were still something left to fix. ¡°I said that fixing it won¡¯t solve the problem. You¡¯re not the problem, I¡¯m the problem. I¡¯m just tired of this.¡± Estella¡¯s body flinched at his firm words of unwavering acceptance. ¡°Well, what if I don¡¯t let you get tired? I can make you so happy that you might forget all the scars you have received from me.¡± Izak sighed at Estella¡¯s words. ¡°I feel like I¡¯m talking to a wall. I think it¡¯s right to say that a 19-year-old is immature. Yeah, I really believe that you¡¯ve leaped from the past to the future.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°I made it clear. I¡¯m done with you playing with my emotions.¡± ¡°¡­give me a chance.¡± Estella¡¯s eyes are starting to get moist. She really could not let him go with their kids. She doesn¡¯t have any clue how much the past Estella wronged him before, but she still hoped that she could fix it. ¡°I told you, I had a crush on you for five years. I don¡¯t remember, but my past hurt you. Unlike that, I still love you. So what am I supposed to do? Of course, I can¡¯t help but hang on to you.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°Give me a chance. Just during this divorce period.¡± Estella looks up to him with moist eyes, pulling slightly at the hem of his clothes. She used her lethal move to please! Estella was really going all out. Izak looked down at Estella with a cold look as if he didn¡¯t intend to be swayed by her. ¡°This is ridiculous. The woman who looked at me yesterday was cold. Now she is asking for another chance.¡± This was very frustrating and crazy but¡­ Somehow deep inside him, he felt pleased. Izak smiled sarcastically at his complex emotion. ¡°Opportunity, I¡¯ll give you.¡± Estella¡¯s face bloomed at his words. ¡°I hope you can get hurt as much as I¡¯ve been hurt.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± Izak said so and then walked past Estella. His expression was so cold and scary that Estella went stiff. He looks as if he¡¯s trying to get revenge for himself. Estella was a little afraid, but soon she mumbled, rubbing her arms. ¡°Well, at least I¡¯ve got a chance.¡± Estella is confident. Of course, she was a little afraid of Izak¡¯s reaction earlier, but she was confident enough. ¡®Even if I did something wrong in the past, it¡¯s possible if I do well from now on. Who am I? Estella de Messian.¡¯ Of course, the biggest obstacle is not being able to gauge how much she has done wrong. ¡°I can¡¯t even ask him every single thing I¡¯ve done wrong¡­.¡¯ Well, it would be better than doing nothing. Estella can never let go of Izak or even their cute twins. This is an opportunity given by God. Continue the happy marriage with Izak, and correct her past mistakes! The male lead¡¯s regret ended up with a happy ending that finally regained the finale loved! In this case, she was the male lead who regretted it. Since that day, Estella tried everything to make up for her past wrongdoings to Izak. When she had a passionate crush on him, she gave him clothes, shoes, and accessories according to his taste. So she started doing what she did before. She even gave him a big amount of money to buy a ship for him, who was interested in trading ships before. But exactly after two weeks¡­ ¡°How¡­ how can he be so cold? What¡¯s going on? He is like a wall. I feel like I¡¯m confessing my love to a wall.¡± Estella murmured as she sat on the sofa, shocked. The nanny, who was watching from the side, said a word. ¡°Princess, you can¡¯t win a man¡¯s heart with material things.¡± ¡°What? Then what should I do then? He don¡¯t seem to want to talk to me, but what did he want me to do if he don¡¯t accept this sincerity? Anyway, humans can¡¯t be so strong. Soon Izak will fall to me again with my sincere love.¡± ¡°¡­Princess, your highness¡­ I think you¡¯ve gone back to your nineteen years old self, no matter how much memory you have lost, you still have to do the basic things as usual¡­.¡± ¡°What do I usually do?¡± ¡°You are always neat, cool, and cultured. You stopped choosing words like that in the first place.¡± ¡°I¡¯ve been such a grown-up?¡± ¡°¡­Adult, Princess. It¡¯s not good to educate your children if a mother of two is hanging on the sofa like this or using unkempt words.¡± The nanny was always nagging. Estella stared at the nanny who started nagging again today. ¡°But, nanny. I used to be like this.¡± ¡°You grew up as you grew older.¡± ¡°But I wasn¡¯t the kind of person who was cold-hearted, and I wasn¡¯t the kind of person who was very demure.¡± ¡°You¡¯ve changed your mind since you got married.¡± ¡°How?¡± When Estella persistently asked, the nanny seemed to think deeply only then. The nanny went back a long time and compared Estella¡¯s immature past with her behavior in recent years. ¡°Surely, you¡¯ve changed a lot. I was glad that you finally grew up.¡± ¡°Nanny, I heard I did a lot of mean things to Izak. Is that why I changed my personality?¡± ¡°Oh, don¡¯t ask me about your husband and wife businesses.¡± ¡°Why¡­¡± Estella stood up and pressed the nanny as if to think quickly. ¡°Oh, how dare I interfere in the affairs of the princess and her husband. I¡¯m just watching.¡± ¡°So, tell me what you¡¯ve been watched? You must have know how I¡¯ve been to Izak in the past, so I can recall it myself so I can put a period to it.¡± The nanny didn¡¯t seem to want to speak from the bottom of her heart. But is there anyone else besides Izak who knows her well? Estella was feeling guilty but she kept picking up on the nanny. Finally, the nanny opened her mouth. ¡°Princess¡­ You wronged Izak many times, in your marriage¡­ As a mother¡­.¡± The nanny looked at her and started to speak. Estella even encourages her more. ¡°You¡¯ve done a lot of mean things¡­.¡± ¡°Specifically?¡± ¡°Oh, well, I can¡¯t even count¡­.¡± ¡°You have to tell me that so I can reflect on myself.¡± At Estella¡¯s words, Estella¡¯s brutality poured out from the nanny¡¯s mouth. ¡°¡­you brought other men to the mansion every day¡­ And you were always inside the room for a long time¡­ All the servants did not dare to stop you and Izak couldn¡¯t let himself prevent you. Of course, no one saw the scene the direct extramarital affair, but¡­¡± ¡°¡­.¡± Isn¡¯t this totally something difficult to fix? Chapter 12 Also, there are more days when you are out than when you are at home. Of course, you are busy doing business, but you just neglected your family in general.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°You said a lot of harsh things to Izak. Well¡­ like it doesn¡¯t matter to you or to him, things like that.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°And¡­¡± ¡°Stop, stop.¡± ¡°What? You told me to tell you everything.¡± ¡°Oh, no.¡± Estella hurriedly blocked the nanny¡¯s mouth. Estella had a headache so she tilted her head as if to signify she could not tolerate any longer. ¡°Did I do something like that?¡± ¡°¡­yes.¡± ¡°Why on earth?¡± The nanny shrugged instead of answering. Estella held her forehead tightly. She didn¡¯t understand. No matter how much she thought about it, she eventually pulled her blond hair apart as if tearing it apart. ¡®Did I really do that? Me? Me?!¡¯ ¡®Why?!¡¯ Her head was now full of questions. ¡°I¡¯ve been having an affair?¡± ¡°I¡¯m not sure, just¡­the circumstances pointed you to do so¡± ¡°I left Izak alone and I went out of my way?! Me? Did I date another man over that handsome Izak?! That¡¯s what I have been doing?!¡± Estella¡¯s eyes are popping out. ¡°I wasn¡¯t interested in those cute kids? Those chubby, fluffy, little, cute kids?¡± ¡°¡­.¡± The nanny nodded quietly. ¡°Oh, my God, I sure was crazy!¡± The nanny nodded silently again. ¡°I was such a piece of crap?¡± Estella asked again because she couldn¡¯t admit that she did it. ¡°Oh, you are worse than a piece of crap actually.¡± The nanny, who was trying to answer Estella¡¯s question, quickly closed her mouth and looked at Estella. ¡°Is that what nanny thought of? But why didn¡¯t you stop me?¡± ¡°That¡¯s it¡­ I¡¯ve talked to you, but you said you¡¯d take care of it.¡± The nanny had other reasons, but she didn¡¯t say why. It was because she knew well that it was not a problem that she could meddle with. ¡°Has Izak told me anything about it yet?¡± ¡®I don¡¯t know why Izak can¡¯t tell me about the incident that caused all the problems.¡¯ ¡®Does he still have resentments for me? If he hides it, the relationship could get better. Of course, only on the premise that I can¡¯t really remember the past¡­.¡¯ The nanny is only an onlooker thus she did not dare to intervene, so she answered the best possible answer for what Estella asked. ¡°¡­did I do that? Oh, my God. Oh, my God, how did I become so crazy?¡± Estella stretched and pulled her hair like she was blaming herself. The nanny stopped Estella¡¯s hand, saying that her hair would fall out. Now she was about to slap herself in the face because she didn¡¯t want to pull her hair. The nanny quickly grabbed Estella¡¯s hand and said. ¡°Princess, don¡¯t be so hard on yourself. Just get closer to him from now on.¡± ¡°Huh¡­? You mean¡­ even now.¡± ¡°You have to tell Izak how you feel. Words or in letters.¡± ¡°Does that make sense? I had an affair.¡± ¡°That¡¯s what the princess of the past did.¡± ¡°Then let¡¯s catch all the other men and let them tell the truth.¡± ¡°In front of Mr. Izak?¡± ¡°No¡­ just in front of me.¡± ¡°If the affair really did happen¡­.¡± ¡°¡­then I¡¯m a real trash and a beast.¡± Estella¡¯s pupils shook badly. Obviously, a few days ago, she thought it was a piece of cake to change Izak¡¯s mind, but no. Her atrocities were more horrible than she thought. This made Estella unable to trust her future and past self. Estella began to feel uneasy about the men and the fact that she had committed a real affair. If the extramarital affair is really true¡­ ¡°I¡¯m really guilty to death.¡± Frustrated Estella eventually buried her face on the sofa and began to cry. ¡°Oh, what should I do? We can¡¯t let Izak leave like this. But if everything I¡¯ve done is true, I think it¡¯s right to let him go¡­ Wuwuwu!¡± ¡°Don¡¯t blame yourself. Couples from different families are also not harmonious. Everybody¡¯s got a problem. Izak has been waiting for the princess. Now you can repay his love. ¡° ¡°¡­but there¡¯s no way I could still fix our marriage. We are now in the middle of a divorce.¡± ¡°What do you mean, princess? Please show me your Pride.¡± ¡°Now is not the time to be prideful¡­ Nanny¡­He told me that I wanted a divorce first. He looked so tired of me¡­ If I was in his shoes I would do the same. Just be honest with me. My husband already notified you about the divorce, right? What do you think?¡± ¡°¡­.¡± As Estella looked at her gently, the nanny felt sorry for her, so she quickly changes the subject. ¡°Oh, Young Master Ruth is crying. Master. This nanny is coming~~~¡± ¡°I can¡¯t hear him crying.¡± ¡°Well, I will now go¡­.¡± ¡°Nanny!¡± ¡°Oh, why don¡¯t you meet the Chess family?¡± ¡°Do they know a solution?¡± ¡°No, but the Chess couple miraculously reunited after their divorce period!¡± ¡°¡­Really?¡± When Estella showed interest, the nanny nodded quickly. ¡°Yes, the Countess and the Count Chess¡­ Her husband was a real dog. But at some point, he changed. Why don¡¯t you talk to Countess Chess first? For what reason did you forgive him?¡± ¡°Was Count Chess as much of a shit as I was?¡± ¡°Of course!¡± The nanny seemed to say ¡°Cheer up,¡± but it sounded like ¡°He is just as bad as you are, Estella.¡± Estella nodded, feeling a little sullen. She needed to see the Chess family. ¡°Oh, and my princess. Why don¡¯t you join him on his bed from today?¡± ¡°Huh? On his bed?¡± Estella¡¯s pupils shook violently again. Come to think of it, Estella has been using the room alone. Even though Estella, a 19-year-old pure, knew that the couple should be sleeping together but she never thought she would be in that situation now. ¡°Yes, the princess has left the room, so she¡¯ll just have to go back.¡± ¡°Sleeping¡­ Sleeping¡­ That¡¯s a good idea. I need to get closer to my Husband. Right? ¡°I don¡¯t think Izak will touch you or anything, though.¡± ¡°Nanny, think that way? If we just use one bed, we¡¯ll face each other. Even if we don¡¯t want to see each other we can talk to each other naturally. Yeah, let¡¯s move all my stuff in his room today.¡± ¡°You need to inform Mr. Izak.¡± ¡°I¡¯ll tell him myself.¡± Chapter 13 ¡°I don¡¯t like it.¡± ¡°¡­why?¡± ¡°It¡¯s up to you to leave the room, but it¡¯s up to me whether I want you back or not. You separated from the room without telling me, and I didn¡¯t think you were shameless enough to come in without telling me again.¡± Izak has put up a wall stronger than what Estella thought. ¡°But Izak, you always distance yourself from me when I try to do something.¡± ¡°It¡¯s different with the bed.¡± ¡°Not even a chance?¡± ¡°So, do I have to do everything you ask me to do?¡± ¡°Who asked you to do it all? I just want us to live like a normal couple¡­¡± Estella wanted to argue more, but Izak¡¯s opinion was more important. Izak looked at Estella and tilted his head to her face. ¡®Did Izak have a plan?¡¯ ¡°Okay, let¡¯s do that.¡± Suddenly, Izak changed his mind and allowed Estella to sleep with him. Estella was a little nervous, but she quickly took the bait. Estella ordered her servants to move all the things in her room to the couple¡¯s room. After the separation within these three years, the servants looked at Estella and Izak, wondering what was going on. They wondered if the two, who were so cold to each other, finally reunited. Looking at Izak¡¯s cold expression, they don¡¯t think that¡¯s right. Estella had a lot of luggage. Unidentified document boxes and accessories. Estella looked through them and didn¡¯t know what they were. ¡°What are these?¡± When she opened the accessory box, all kinds of rings were there. Hundreds of rings, not one or two or dozens. They were all studded with brilliant jewels. Although collecting accessories was her hobby, did she collect this much? Estella picked up a long, snake-like band of rings from a box. ¡°Why is there so much?¡± Then, Izak came into the room. ¡°What kind of rings are these? I¡¯m not usually extravagant¨C¡± Estella asked for to herself while quickly putting back the rings. ¡°Don¡¯t worry and keep reminiscing.¡± ¡°What? What is there to reminisce about?¡± ¡°The rings¡­They are re gifts from your lovers.¡± ¡°¡­eh?¡± ¡°Oh, you don¡¯t remember, do you?¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°These are collections of gifts from your lovers. You were obsessed with rings.¡± Estella quietly and quickly put the boxes in a corner. ¡°Oh, haha. I don¡¯t care about rings anymore. What¡¯s good about rings, anyway?¡± Estella, who was trying not to offend Izak somehow, felt sorry for him. Izak no longer said anything sarcastic or criticized her. Instead, he stared at Estella¡¯s finger. Estella had no wedding ring on her finger. Izak closed the door. Estella awkwardly sat on the bed and looked at Izak. Was she digging on her own grave? Why did she ask about the ring? She lay down on the bed and closed her eyes. Feeling that the light was covered, Estella opened her eyes again. She saw Izak¡¯s face. ¡°What, what, what, what¡­You¡¯re¡­¡± Estella, embarrassed, stuttered heavily. ¡°I heard we¡¯re going back to being normal couples.¡± Izak said with a nonchalant face. ¡°Ahh¡­ Ehhh¡­¡± ¡°Then what else is there to do besides that?¡± Izak said so and began to untie his necktie ribbon. His hard chest caught Estella¡¯s eyes as the ribbon tying around his chest slowly unraveled. ¡°Oh, no! No! No!¡± Estella quickly closed her eyes and screamed, covering her opened eyes with both hands. Izak looked down at the embarrassed Estella and said, ¡°I¡¯m just taking off my clothes.¡± ¡°Argh! Hurry up and cover it up, hurry up!¡± He turned his head to the side so as not to look at his chest, but Estella¡¯s eyes opened by themselves and glanced at Izak¡¯s chest. ¡°You keep on looking.¡± ¡°I didn¡¯t see it!¡± Izak reached out to Estella. Estella quickly turned her eyes away and shouted. ¡°We can¡¯t do this!¡± ¡°I haven¡¯t touched you yet.¡± ¡°I¡¯m still nineteen!¡± ¡°My wife, you married me when you were nineteen. We spent the first night at your age.¡± ¡°Well, not now, though! I¡¯m not ready yet!¡± Estella got up, pushing his chest. Then she quickly ended up rolling in a thick blanket over her whole body, while still wearing pajamas. ¡°What? Did you think the twins came down from the sky?¡± Izak looked at her with absurd eyes. ¡°My memory is still when Izak married Lily. Oh, my God. I didn¡¯t even have a hand with Izak yet. But how can¡­ I don¡¯t know!¡± ¡°Then why did you come here?¡± ¡°I¡¯m just going to sleep with you.¡± Izak¡¯s eyes squinted at her words. ¡°So aren¡¯t we doing it?¡± ¡°We need to have a conversation.¡± ¡°I thought it was a body conversation.¡± Estella freaked out. Body conversation? Estella has never held hands with a man except her father, the king, or kissed another on the cheeks. What happened to her a while ago was like a slow-walking child suddenly started riding a horse. ¡°Do you enjoy me being embarrassed?¡± Estella said, holding on to her still fluttering heart. ¡°Yes, it¡¯s fun.¡± Estella was embarrassed again by Izak¡¯s blunt response. ¡°It¡¯s fun to see a person, who¡¯s always been cold, being embarrassed by me. When I try to have a conversation with you, you would always cut me off.¡± ¡°You¡¯re so childish right now, aren¡¯t you?¡± ¡°I know it¡¯s childish, but it¡¯s funny. This situation was funny.¡± Giving Estella a chance was¡­ In fact, his biggest desire was to pay back what he had suffered throughout the years he spent with her. Chapter 14 Izak wanted to be childish for the first and last time. The woman who broke his heart to pieces. How can she just leave without even feeling the pain he had gone through? Izak somehow hid his most bitter feelings. ¡°Please continue to have fun.¡± ¡°Then, will you think about not having a divorce?¡± ¡°No, not any chance.¡± Izak remained the same. Estella¡¯s expression was upset at Izak¡¯s words. ¡°Giving me this chance is already enough for me. One day, you¡¯ll come back unknowingly. We¡¯ll see. Someday, you will be saying you love me.¡± At Estella¡¯s bold words, Izak clenched his fist. ¡°Try your best.¡± Then he covered himself with the blanket and lay beside Estella, away from her. Estella looked at his back for a long time. Thinking that she should think about another way to win him over, she took another blanket and wrapped herself. Then she lay still next to him in a straight posture. Badum- Badum- Badum Her heart was beating very loudly. Estella peeked around the room. Izak still has his back turned away from her. She could tell he was sleeping already due to his snores. She couldn¡¯t sleep Maybe it¡¯s because she was in the same bed with a man. Or was it because the guy next to her is Izak? Estella raised her hand and put it near her heart. It was really beating fast. ¡®How did this happen between us? Why did I¡­ hurt Izak?¡¯ Estella woke up by the sunlight coming through the window. Since she couldn¡¯t fall asleep until late at night because of her mixed thoughts, Estella wanted to sleep more. As the lighting continued to irritate her, she opened her eyes. ¡°¡­Wow.¡± Estella instinctively drooled at the magnificent view of Izak in front of her. Estella was staring at the handsome face of Izak. He would always frown when he sees her or put up a poker face, so she has never seen his eased-up expression. The sun was shining on his pure sleeping face. It was as if an angel had fallen. ¡®How come I thought of leaving such a man¡­?¡¯ She was then reminded of the thoughts she had been thinking all night long. Estella decided to put those ideas aside for a while and appreciated the face of the handsome man and husband in front of her. His thick black eyebrows, long nose, long eyelashes, plump lips, and a muscular hard chest could be seen in just a glance. ¡°Whoa.¡± Estella quickly turned her eyes away because it was too much for her. Then she peeks at her husband¡¯s face again. ¡°Handsome.¡± His forehead, which had been relaxed, is slowly starting to frown. He must be having a nightmare seeing his eyelashes shaking and his mouth flinching. Estella gently rubbed her index finger against his heavily wrinkled forehead. Then Izak opened his eyes at that strange touch. ¡°What?¡± Izak asked with the world¡¯s dissatisfied face. Estella said, ¡°Ahh¡± and put her hands away. ¡°You were having a nightmare. If you continue frowning, you will have wrinkles on your forehead, even before you become a grandfather.¡± Izak tapped his forehead and said. ¡°Did I frown while asleep?¡± ¡°Yes, a lot. I think you had a nightmare. Are you all right?¡± ¡°Yeah, I am okay.¡± ¡°What kind of dream did you have?¡± At Estella¡¯s words, Izak sat down and looked at Estella. ¡°I¡¯m just saying this because I¡¯m worried. Can¡¯t I even worry about you?¡± Estella spoke up quickly, wondering if she had anything bad. Izak seemed to want something to say at Estella¡¯s appearance, but he couldn¡¯t blurt out any words. If Estella really came from the past, as she said, and she came here after his wedding with Lily Bertrand, she might not know about it yet. Estella cheated on Izak after his parents were executed. What kind of nightmare did he have to the point he was frowning? He dreamed about the day his parents were executed. However, Izak could not bear to tell Estella about it. Back then she was just sitting on the sidelines after his parents¡¯ death. The current Estella, who knows nothing about it, will continue to live without knowing anything. It will probably be the safest ending for her and for himself. As time went by, Izak intended to leave Messian. He was tired of all the memories he had in the kingdom of Messian. Except for his two children who call him Papa and hug him lovingly, he wanted to leave everything behind. The thought of revenge for his parents didn¡¯t even cross in his mind. Izak didn¡¯t want to hurt anyone and himself in the process. Just in time, the servant came in with new clothes. Izak quickly washed his face, dressed, and left the room. ¡°He should have waited for me¡­¡± Estella grumbled at Izak, who left first. The nanny came in and told Estella good news. ¡°Princess, good news.¡± ¡°Good news?¡± ¡°Yes, the Countess Chess has replied. Here you go.¡± The nanny said excitedly, giving a letter from the Countess. Estella quickly opened the letter and began to read it. ¡®It¡¯s an honor to have received an offer of a meeting, Princess Messian. I couldn¡¯t be happier that I, a citizen of Messian, could be chosen as someone to share with a little bit of your concern, the light of Messian. Please, don¡¯t feel pressured and share your worries with me. As the princess said, I will see you tomorrow at midnight on August 7 at the Rondonia Salon with my husband. Until then, I wish you all the best. The Light of Messian, Estella de Rief Messian.¡¯ ¡°That¡¯s a relief. I¡¯ll send you a reply, will you bring the paper?¡± ¡°Yes!¡± Estella looked forward to meeting Mrs. Chess with excitement. Chapter 15 It was the day of meeting Countess Chess. Estella began preparing to go to the Rondonia Salon early in the morning. ¡°Are you going out somewhere?¡± Izak asked when he saw Estella coming out of the Toilet room after finishing preparation. ¡°Oh¡­ I¡¯m going to see someone for a while.¡± She couldn¡¯t say that she was going to visit a wife, who forgave her asshole husband, and ask how the relationship got better again. ¡°Oh, I see.¡± As if he was not interested, Izak shrugged for no reason and replied. ¡°I¡¯m not seeing a guy, so don¡¯t worry,¡± Estella added jokingly. ¡°I am not worried at all.¡± Izak said so and went out to the back mountain with the children. His voice seemed calm, but he seemed to be concerned about Estella¡¯s outing. The Rhondonia Salon, was a salon that Estella often went to. It was like her own yard seven years ago. But now it¡¯s different. Over the past seven years, the Rhondonia Salon has changed the owner many times. Usually the owner¡¯s portrait would welcome others, but the salon¡¯s current owner, Madame Della Lang, welcomed Estella very personally. ¡°Oh, my Princess! Why did you come here after such a long time? Whom you will be seeing?¡± Madame Lang was from the Etheria, a neighboring country of the Kingdom of Messian, with the appearance and tone of the Etherians possess. She was currently sticking close to Estella and has been glued to her side ever since she got off the wagon. Entering the salon, Madame Lang said privately. ¡°Princess, the people you¡¯ve met last time are asking you for another meeting.¡± ¡°The people I¡¯ve met?¡± ¡°Yes, the men that brought the jewels.¡± ¡°Jewel¡­?¡± ¡°Yeah! Jewelry! A big red ruby! He said he would give you rings or necklaces as you wanted!¡± Madame Lang said excitedly, and Estella went pale. There¡¯s something Izak said last night. The rings that her boyfriends gave to her were ¡®Memories.¡¯ She disappointed Izak throughout their marriage, and then she hit him with the divorce papers! ¡°¡­Oh, no!¡± Estella begun to panick deep inside. In an instant, she foresaw the future. The cold back of Izak leaving with the twins. Estella shook her head quickly whilist clinging to him but being dumped coldly. ¡°What do you mean, no?¡± Madame Lang asked with a curious face. Estella doesn¡¯t know what to say, so she was still thinking about the future. She asked for the last time. ¡°Do they like me a lot?¡± ¡°What? Uh um, Yes. Don¡¯t you like them too?¡± Estella¡¯s face turned pale at her words. ¡®Oh, my God, no.¡¯ ¡°Tell him I appreciate it, but I refuse.¡± ¡°Yes, but¡­¡± ¡°I¡¯ve decided to settle down with only one man from now on. I¡¯ll try to make up for the actions I¡¯ve been doing.¡± She was now her 19 years old self. Estella spoke to Madame Lang with earnest eyes. But Madame couldn¡¯t figure out what Estella was talking about. Settle down? A man? Make up for it? Although jewelers what was the Princess iked, there seems to be some misunderstanding, especially since Estella was strange today, so Madam nodded, saying she would do so from now on. ¡°Is Countess Chess here? We were supposed to meet.¡± ¡°I¡¯ll show you the away, Princess.¡± Madame Lang led Estella to one side of the salon. ¡°Countess, the Princess is here.¡± Countess Chess quickly got up from her seat and greeted her while slightly lifting up the dress hem. The Count also bowed to Estella. Madame Lang pretended to leave but still watched Estella intently. ¡®What happened to her¡­?¡¯ She was like a different person now. ¡®You¡¯re different from your usual Princess. Is this part of the plan?¡¯ Whatever it was, She decided to watch her quietly for now. Madame Lang was a woman who swore allegiance to the Princess. *** Estella returned home with a pleasant face. As Izak looked at Estella, he wondered what she had done and whom she had met with. Who was the person that made her look so happy? However, Izak did not intend to ask her questions. Estella didn¡¯t like him prying into her private life like that. So he held back his desire to ask and lifted the teacup. Now the two were having tea time together. This was something Estella earnestly asked for. A few days ago, Estella offered Izak a pretty bold deal. ¡°Let¡¯s have tea time together, let¡¯s make it three times a day!¡± Izak accepted her proposal. Three times a day, which are breakfast, lunch, and dinner. Now, the distance between herself and Izak has narrowed down. There was no common conversation as they have tea time, they would only sip the tea and stare at each other. This was because Izak would only criticize. Estella was now afraid to ask him about anything. It was the same as today. Chapter 16 ¡°Don¡¯t you want to know whom I met?¡± Estella sneaked a look at Izak, he just lifted the teacup with a nonchalant face. ¡°Are you sure you¡¯re not curious?¡± She was smiling right now. ¡°Usually, no matter whom you¡¯ve met or what you have done, doesn¡¯t really matter.¡± Estella sighed unconsciously at the sight of Izak, who seemed to have no interest in her. His face that looked good until a while ago, began to darken. ¡®Who did you meet with¡­.?¡¯ Seeing the change in his expression, Estella thought: ¡®Does his expression change every minute? I thought Izak might ask, but¡­¡¯ He put down the teacup again, thinking of what Estella did in the past. But he was interrupted by two kid who look like him and Estella. The twins appeared holding the nanny¡¯s hand, perhaps because they knew their father well. As soon as the children saw Estella, they let go of the nanny¡¯s hand and quickly ran toward her. They hugged Estella¡¯s legs tightly and asked, burying their cute face in her bosom. ¡°Mama, where have you been¡­?¡± ¡°Let¡¯s play, huh? Let¡¯s play!¡± Estella gazed intently at the twins¡¯ faces and recalled her conversation with the Countess Chess. The Countess Chess, whom she met at the Salon of Rondonia, was an outstanding person from the moment she first saw her. According to the nanny and other servants, the Chess couple was the worst case of the divorce crisis. Back then, Countess Chess even packed her bags, stormed out of the house, and went back to her parent¡¯s home. However, the couple in front of her now, held each other¡¯s hands tightly and were displaying affection everywhere at every moment. Estella coughed a few times and asked Countess Chess. ¡°As the letter says, I¡¯m very interested in your. About how you united as the Chess couple known today. I heard you were on the verge of divorce, but, now you two look so close that I might thought your supposed to be divorce was a lie.¡± Countess Chess smiled at Estella¡¯s words and looked at her husband. The Count smiled, looking at his wife as if she was the most beautiful woman and held her hand tighter. Estella looked at them enviously, especially towards their hands clasped together. Will Izak hold her hand like that in the future? She really wanted to do so, but Estella couldn¡¯t hide her regret. She quickly changed her expression when she saw that Countess Chess was about to open her mouth. ¡°It is as what you heard from the rumors. We were really on the verge of divorce. But My Husband worked hard to changed my mind. So, I never thought I¡¯d get along with this guy.¡± ¡°How did you ask your wife for forgiveness?¡± Estella quickly asked the Count. ¡°I begged for her forgiveness every day, and to give me one more chance.¡± The Count shook his head as if to think of that time while the Countess said with a grin. ¡°Back then I really didn¡¯t want to forgive you. I didn¡¯t want a sweet husband just for the kids. But the kids were constantly looking for their dad, they¡¯ve probably been moved by his gesture to visit us nonstop for the past year¡­¡± The couple continued to talked about how they got on bad terms, the trigger, and how they solved it. Estella was grateful to the couple for sharing every details. ¡°Thank you so much for saying that. I¡¯m sorry I asked you such personal things unintentionally.¡± ¡°No, I¡¯m fine. I hope that the Princess gets along with her husband again.¡± The Count replied, ¡°You are right about that wife.¡± ¡°Yes, we are cheering for you at your marriage.¡± ¡°Cheering?¡± ¡°You must have been very talkative. Your Husband¡­¡± Countess Chess pinched the Count¡¯s thigh, at what he was about to say. The Count breathed in, gritted his teeth, and quickly turned his words around. ¡°Anyway, I hope you get along with your husband again.¡± ¡°Princess. These days, they don¡¯t just let this go after the divorce. The process will be more complicated if the couples reunite. As the Princess knows best, you also have to pay taxes separately. And you¡¯re not allowed to see each other for three years.¡± ¡°Tax?¡± ¡°Recombination tax.¡± That sounds unreasonable. Estella blinked as if she had never heard of it. ¡°Maybe it was made to think carefully about divorce. We changed our minds just before the divorce verdict¡­.¡± ¡°Is the law revised?¡± ¡°Yes, Your Highness¡­.¡± ¡°I didn¡¯t expect my father to revise such a law.¡± She doesn¡¯t know that there was such a law her father would do. Benjamin was a king to be envied by everyone, but he was just a father to Estella. ¡°What?¡± The Count and Countess looked at Estella with wondering eyes. The Countess, who noticed something strange, first winked at her husband. The couple exchanged glances as if telling to each other not to say anything else. They smiled as if nothing had happened and continued. Chapter 17 Estella has now heard the story of the love and war of the Countess from her servants and now their own point of view after many hours. Before they bid their goodbyes, Countess Chess sent her husband out first and held Estella¡¯s hand tightly. ¡°Princess, people say that a marriage is a life of patience, but I don¡¯t think so. I think we should be considerate of each other, and above all, respect and love one another.¡± ¡°What if one side is too wrong?¡± ¡°All you have to do is ask for forgiveness. I originally snorted when my husband constantly visited for six months. How long will that last? We even extended the divorce period.¡± ¡°Was it possible to extend it?¡± Countess Chess nodded quickly and continued. ¡°You can extend it for two months before the end of the divorce re-consideration period. From then on, it does not extend and goes straight to the court. Many couples often avoided divorced after thinking about it. And I¡¯ve had two extensions.¡± ¡°Two?¡± ¡°I was half-confident when we applied, but now I think about it we made the right decision. Marriage is to be thought carefully, but divorce will need much care decisions. Especially if a couple has childrens, they¡¯ll need to be more careful.¡± Estella¡¯s heart tightened on the word ¡°children.¡± ¡°Did you ever reconsider about not having a divorce because of the children?¡± ¡°There was a time, but it never became the main reason. In a family where parents are not happy, children will eventually end up unhappy. Even if it was a single-parent family. At first I was confident that I could raise my children alone. But they become needy of a father figure. When I saw that he was sincere towards me and the kids, I started to waiver.¡± How the hell is she supposed to show him that she was serious? ¡°My husband is complaining to whatever I do.¡± ¡°I was like that, too. But if my husband didn¡¯t give up and keep showing sincerity, I even wanted to trust him at some point.¡± Estella nodded her head still. Was it possible for Izak to trust her again at some point? ¡°Are you close to your children?¡± Countess Chess asked while looking at Estella¡¯s sullen expression. Everyone knew that Estella and Izak had fraternal twins. ¡°I don¡¯t know.¡± ¡°Be friendly with your children first. Children are pure and honest, so they can tell if you are serious or not. Children¡¯s feelings will then be passed on to their parents.¡± That was also a problem. Estella knows in her head that the twins are her children, but she couldn¡¯t remember the memories she had from suffering for ten months, the memories when she delivered them, or even how they were made. She can¡¯t help but feel like they are not really her children. She feels like she¡¯s looking at someone else¡¯s cute child. ¡°Don¡¯t think too hard. You might not know, your kids could become your cupid?¡± ¡°I don¡¯t think it¡¯s going to be easy to get close to my children.¡± ¡°If you give them love, they¡¯ll give it back. You can treat them the same way as other people do. With respect, courtesy, and love.¡± She can feel comfort and stability within the hand of Countess Chess. Estella somehow felt like Countess Chess was her sister, so she nodded her head without realizing it and asked. ¡°May I contact you often. Talking to you calms me down.¡± ¡°Of course, I¡¯m more than welcome.¡± The conversation with Countess Chess was a great comfort to Estella. Now the question is, can Izak¡¯s agree to restore their marriage, just like the Countess Chess dud? Just as she was about to get a little sullen, Estella shook her head and slapped her cheek with both of her hands. ¡°Let¡¯s not be discouraged. Who am I? I¡¯m a Messian, the Princess Estella.¡± ¡°Mama!¡± Lucy said with a twinkle in her eye. At the call of the children, Estella finished reminiscing. In front of her were two small, chubby children rubbing their faces against Estella. ¡°Let¡¯s have fun, shall we? Let¡¯s play!¡± ¡°Mama¡­ let¡¯s play¡­¡± Ruth, who holding her hand next to Lucy, glistened his big eyes and imitated his sister. Estella looked at the children. ¡°Do you want to play?¡± ¡°Yes, Lucy and I want to play house with Mama, and Papa! I¡¯m sure it¡¯ll be fun! Lucy will make something delicious with Ruth!¡± ¡°Mama, Lucy¡­ I want to play house with Papa too. I¡¯ll make whatever Mama likes.¡± With such pleading from them, she couldn¡¯t say no, speaking with their eyes glistening, using sweet words. ¡°Shall we go and play house?¡± Estella said with a grin. ¡°Yes! Good! Good!¡± The children replied with excitement. ¡°Let¡¯s go, then.¡± ¡°Yay!¡± Lucy seems to look like Estella. While Ruth looks just like Izak in his childhood days, holding Ruth¡¯s hand and starting to pry through the room with short his legs. Ruth was being dragged by Lucy but he did not let go of her hand. Estella got up from her seat to head towards the greenhouse with the twins. ¡°Yehey!¡± Lucy runs toward the kitchen and started ¡®Cooking¡¯. Ruth then quickly follows Lucy and wiggled around and cooked in the pantry copying her movements. Chapter 18 All four of them headed to the greenhouse. The greenhouse is the favorite playground of the twins. And their favorite game is playing house. ¡°Lucy, I¡¯ll make you something delicious. Papa says, ¡°Hey.¡± ¡°Aren¡¯t I that too big to be the baby, Lucy?¡± ¡°Ugh, no, Papa.¡± As Lucy said, Izak lay beside Lucy with a wobbly face. The baby has to lie down all the time. If he don¡¯t do what Lucy says, she will surely cry at the top of her voice, and so Izak has become an enormous baby. ¡°Goodness, um¡­¡± ¡°Mama is the nanny!¡± ¡°So who is Lucy?¡± When asked by Estella, Lucy rolled her eyes and said clearly. ¡°I¡¯m Mama! Ruth is Papa!¡± Then Ruth familiarly went to Izak¡¯s side and began to sing a lullaby, stroking his face with his hands. ¡°Sleep, sleep¡­¡± Lucy opened the door and pretended to come in and called Estella. ¡°Nanny!¡± ¡°Yes, ma¡¯am.¡± ¡°I worked hard today, I¡¯m tired.¡± Then, she sighs for a long time and pats her shoulder with her own hands. Estella quickly massage her small shoulder and said. ¡°Madam, are you having a hard time?¡± Estella found it cute that her kids are pretending to be adults. ¡°Honey!¡± As soon as Ruth sees Lucy, he runs to hug her. Lucy struck out such a loose and said firmly. ¡°You are annoying!¡± ¡°Honey¡­¡± ¡°I¡¯m having a hard time, go to Pa-Izak.¡± Then he returned towards Izak like a sore thumb. When Izak was lying still, Lucy was like, ¡°Oh, my God! He¡¯s like a statue.¡± ¡°Papa, you have to cry because you¡¯re a baby! You need to cry!¡± Then he presses down on Izak¡¯s body as he tries to get up. Estella was trying hard not to laugh the current situation of Izak. He was fakely crying while Ruth was tapping his butt and Lucy nagging at Ruth. But then she realizes that the Mama and Papa they were acting was the their relationship. ¡°Hey, the baby will now cry! I am busy so you handle it.¡± ¡°¡­Lucy, shall we go over there and make macarons?¡± Somehow, not feeling the mood, she change the subject, Estella quickly grabbed Lucy¡¯s hand and said. ¡°Yes!¡± ¡°Lucy, I want to make it too¡­.¡± ¡°Yes, Ruth, come with me.¡± Estella took her two children to a corner of the greenhouse away from Izak for a while. There was much dirt in the corner for children who liked to play with the mud. Estella asked the twins, who kneaded the soil, familiarly coated with bracken hands. ¡°Lucy, what were you trying to say earlier? When the baby cries, what was Lucy going to say?¡± ¡°Nanny, take the baby! I¡¯m busy working!¡± ¡°¡­ that¡¯s what Mama usually says?¡± ¡°Yes!¡± Estella swept her lips with her tongue without realizing it, feeling her mouth dry, throat is stuffed, and somehow also chest feels stuffed. ¡®That¡¯s what I said¡­?¡¯ Estella could not raise her head to the children who naively informed her of her atrocities. ¡°Mama? Mama?¡± ¡°¡­sorry, guys.¡± Speaking in a sullen voice, Lucy quickly looked down to see Estella¡¯s face. Ruth quickly follows Lucy as he looks up. ¡°Mama¡­? Mama¡­Don¡¯t cry.¡± ¡°I¡¯m not crying.¡± She didn¡¯t cry, but she became really sad. Estella had never like this before. In the past she was loved a lot. She was a princess who was immature but had no dark past because she was loved by everyone. An innocent and lovely princess who was not hate by others, that was her. Her young self loved Izak so much. Although it was an immature first love of an innocent princess, she remained unchanged with her feelings even after many years. But why are there so many mistakes in her marriage with him, whom she loved so much. ¡®¡­I miss my dad.¡¯ Does Benjamin de Messian, King of Messian and Estella¡¯s best friend, know? That his daughter in the future has such a lousy marriage. Estella missed her father. A father who was infinitely sweet to her and mentally supportive. She guess she is not mature enough to think about her father when she¡¯s having a hard time like this. ¡°What are you taking you so long, Lucy?¡± After a long time, Izak came to pick up the three who never returned from the dirt. Estella didn¡¯t want to face Izak, so she lowered her head quickly. How did Izak feel watching the children playing house? She¡¯s certain he hates her very much and he is very hurt. Izak seems to have been playing with the kids more than her so he must have know. ¡°I¡¯m not changing my mind.¡± Izak said, gently raising Estella¡¯s bowed head. ¡°You have to endure this.¡± In the meantime, the twins hand over hard made soil foods. The children¡¯s eyes were sparkling. They were looking forward to how delicious they¡¯ll be. Estella barely pulled the corner of her mouth and pretended to eat them deliciously. ¡°Delicious! It¡¯s perfect!¡± They reacted with a smile on their face and they acted as if they were eating deliciously. Estella hasn¡¯t noticed that Izak¡¯s gaze has been directed at her, not the twins. Chapter 19 That night, Estella was sitting in bed after changing into her pajamas. Estella was writing a letter to her father. When Izak entered the room, she was still busy using the feather pen to write. After writing the letter, she gave it to the servant standing next to her. ¡°Go give this to my father as soon as you can.¡± The servant looked at Estella and said yes. She quickly took the letter and left. Izak, who was looking at it, tilted his head to the side and asked. ¡°Is that a letter to send to father-in-law just now?¡± ¡°Yes, I¡¯d like to see my father. I have a question about the revision of the divorce law.¡± ¡°¡­Ah.¡± Izak let out a short sigh. Estella looked at him because his reaction was strange. Izak raised his hand awkwardly, reluctant to speak, and fiddled with his eyebrows. ¡°¡­this is how it all turned out of the blue..¡± Izak, who was muttering, sighed briefly. ¡°What?¡± ¡°¡­Estella.¡± Izak was the last to call her by the name. Far from being sweet, the low voice uttering her name felt uneasy. Izak continued slowly. ¡°Your father is now in a coma.¡± ¡°¡­What? What do you mean, the King, the sun?¡± ¡°Father-in-law, King Benjamin, is in a coma. He¡¯s unconscious. Only his body is alive.¡± Estella blinked fatser. Izak¡¯s words couldn¡¯t sink in. ¡°He¡¯s in a coma? Only his body is alive? So the current King is not my father?¡± ¡°Yes.¡± ¡°Then why am I here?¡± Estella thought that she¡¯d have been the ruler if her father was not there. Estella has been trained as the next King since she was a child as the sole heir to the Kingdom of Messiah. History, politics, economics, and everything. Benjamin would always say to her, ¡°The next Ruler is you, Estella,¡± and then give his crown and staff to her. When her father dies, the next ruler will be her. The fact that she was still a princess and started a family in a place other than a royal palace meant for Estella that ¡°Father is still alive and kicking.¡± So why is she here without inheriting the throne when her father is in a coma? Izak¡¯s brow frowned upon by Estella¡¯s question. There was a deep dissatisfaction on his face. Estella once again asked. ¡°Can you please tell me?¡± Izak did not answer. Estella asked another question in frustration. ¡°And what about the current king?¡± ¡°This is Count Bertrand.¡± ¡°Godfather? Well, how about my father?¡± ¡°I¡¯m sure he is still in the middle of treatment at the palace. He¡¯s unconscious, but¡­ We don¡¯t know when he¡¯ll wake up.¡± Estella quickly called her servant. ¡°I have to go to the palace tomorrow morning.¡± With a look of great uneasiness, Estella said. It was sudden, but she left the room quickly. ¡°¡­Izak. Why don¡¯t you tell me why I¡¯m here? I am the heir to the kingdom. Why godfather, not me¡­.¡± ¡°I¡¯m not sure.¡± ¡°What aren¡¯t you sure about?¡± ¡°As to whether you¡¯ll take my word for it,¡± Izak said that and gazed at Estella for a long time. She couldn¡¯t figure out what he was thinking. After a long time later, Izak said. ¡°People call me a traitor who sold myself to the princess and begged for my life.¡± Estella looked up at him, surprised by his sudden remarks. ¡°My parents were beheaded for poisoning the King, and my sister was exiled to another country. And when I married you, I survived and lived on this land.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°My parents are innocent. But the whole situation points to my parents. The King is in a coma, and no one knows when he¡¯ll wake up. No one knows who the real culprit is.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°You¡¯ll hear everything when I go to the palace tomorrow anyway. But I didn¡¯t want to bring it up as much as I could because now you don¡¯t know anything.¡± ¡°¡­then you should have said something. There must have been a chance at any time. I¡¯ve been here for more than a month.¡± Estella trembled. Couldn¡¯t he have said something important as soon as possible? ¡°Look, Estella, this is not the time for you to point at me. Your father is in coma, and on the throne, there is your godfather.¡± He was silent for a moment and barely opened his lips. ¡°Because if you don¡¯t know anything, you can keep pretending you don¡¯t know. You can live without getting divorced as you want. It¡¯s not good for you either.¡± Izak¡¯s cheek turned sideways with a slap. Estella¡¯s hands are red because of the slap. ¡°How can you say that?¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°I was going to bury my father¡¯s death, not divorce as I wanted, is that it?¡± Estella¡¯s voice trembled greatly. ¡°¡­¡± ¡°How a joke must I have been! My father¡¯s dying, and his loving daughter doesn¡¯t want to get divorced, so I¡¯m just trying to suck it up to my husband!¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°You weren¡¯t sure I¡¯d trust you? If I hadn¡¯t asked you today, when would you have told me? Your parents, my father, rebellion, execution. I¡¯m not as stupid as you think I am.¡± ¡°It¡¯s not that I didn¡¯t bring it up to fool you. What I said a while ago was a mistake. I¡¯m sorry.¡± ¡°¡­.¡± ¡°I thought maybe I could turn it around, so I didn¡¯t tell you. You¡¯re past Because it¡¯s different from what you used to know. This time, I can keep what you said¡­¡± ¡°¡­.¡±